Viktor Pelevin. Hermit and Sixfinger
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© Copyright Victor Pelevin
Translation into English © 1996 by Serge Winitzki and Sergey
Bratus
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1
"Get lost."
"???"
"Like I said, get lost. Let me watch."
"But what is it you are watching?"
"Oh God, what an idiot... The Sun, OK?"
Sixfinger looked up from the black turf covered with food, sawdust and
peatcrumbs. He squinted and stared upward.
"Well... We live and live -- but what for? A mystery of ages. And did
anybody even begin to grasp the thin, thread-like nature of the suns?"
The stranger turned his head and stared at Sixfinger with disdainful
curiosity.
"Sixfinger," he immediately introduced himself.
"I am called Hermit," the stranger answered. "Do they say that in your
Socium? About the thin, thread-like nature?"
"It's not `my Socium' any more," Sixfinger said and suddenly whistled:
"Look at that!"
"What?" Hermit asked suspiciously.
"There, look! A new sun just appeared!"
"So what?"
"In the center of the world it never happens. Three suns together..."
Hermit chuckled condescendingly.
"Once I saw eleven at once. One was in the zenith and five more in each
epicycle. Although it wasn't around here."
"Where was it then?" Sixfinger asked.
Hermit kept silence. Turning away, he went aside and chopped off with
his foot a piece of food from the ground, and ate. A gentle warm breeze and
the reflection of the two suns in grayish-green planes of the distant
horizon made for such a serene and sad mood that the ponderous Hermit
twitched when he saw Sixfinger again.
"You are back. What do you want now?"
"I just... wanted to talk."
"Well, but I think you are stupid," Hermit answered. "You'd better go
back to the Socium. You've wandered too far, really, go back..."
He waved his hand toward a narrow, slightly undulating and trembling,
dirty-yellow stripe -- amazingly, that was what the huge, roaring crowd
looked like from here.
"I would go," Sixfinger said, "but they expelled me."
"Really? And why? Political reasons?"
Sixfinger nodded and scratched one foot on the other. Hermit looked at
his feet and shook his head.
"Are they real?"
"Of course, what else... They told me outright: the most, one could
say, Decisive Stage is coming, and you have six toes on your feet...
Couldn't I find a better time for that, they said."
"What is this `decisive stage' about?"
"I don't know. Everybody is on the edge, especially the Twenty Closest,
but nobody makes any sense. They all just run around screaming."
"Ah, I see," Hermit said. "This Stage, is it perhaps getting more and
more distinct by the hour? And its shape more clearly seen?"
"Exactly," Sixfinger was surprised. "How do you know that?"
"Well, I have seen about five or so of these Decisive Stages. They
called them differently each time, though."
"No way," Sixfinger said. "This is going to happen for the first time."
"Oh sure. I would be curious to see how it could happen for a second
time. But we are talking about somewhat different things."
Hermit laughed quietly, walked away a bit, then turned his back toward
the far-away Socium and started scratching the ground energetically with his
feet, until a cloud of garbage and dust hung in the air behind him.
Meanwhile, he was looking back, waving his hands and muttering something.
"What are you doing?" asked a somewhat frightened Sixfinger when Hermit
returned, breathing heavily.
"This is a gesture," Hermit answered. "Kind of an art form. You recite
a poem and make the corresponding action."
"And which poem did you just recite?"
"This one:
At times I feel sad,
looking at those I abandoned,
At times I do laugh,
and between us then rises
a cloud of yellowish fog."
"Why, it isn't a Poem," Sixfinger said. "Thank God, I know all the
Poems. That is, not by heart, of course, but I have heard all twenty-five of
them. This one is surely not one of the Poems."
Hermit regarded him in bewilderment but then seemingly understood.
"Do you remember any of those Poems?" he asked. "Say it."
"Just a minute. The twins... the twins... Well, anyway, we say one
thing, and we mean another. And then we again say one thing, and we mean
another, but the other way around1. It's very beautiful. Finally, we look up
at the Wall, and there..."
"Enough," Hermit said.
There was silence, until Sixfinger broke it:
"Listen, what about you -- where you also expelled?"
"No. Actually, it was I, I expelled them all."
"How could it happen that way?"
"Things happen in many ways," Hermit said, looked at one of the
celestial bodies, and added, as if he meant to stop chatting and start
talking seriously: "It's going to be dark soon."
"Stop that," Sixfinger said, "nobody knows when it's going to be dark."
"Well, I do know. If you want a good sleep, do as I do." And he began
to shove pieces of garbage, turf and sawdust that lay on the ground.
Gradually he made a wall about his own height that encircled a small empty
space. Hermit stepped away from the finished structure, gave it a loving
look and said:
"Here. I call it `Refuge of the Soul'".
"Why?" Sixfinger asked.
"Just so. Beautiful words. Are you going to build one for yourself?"
Sixfinger started picking at the garbage, but he couldn't manage it --
the wall would collapse. Frankly speaking, he didn't try very hard, because
he didn't believe any of what Hermit said about the darkness. But when the
lights in the Heaven flickered and slowly began to fade out, and he heard
the people's terrified sigh from the Socium, like the rustle of wind in hay,
he felt two strong feelings form in his heart: the usual fear of sudden
darkness and a previously unknown feeling of reverence toward someone who
knew more about the world.
"You got lucky," Hermit said. "Jump in. I will build another one."
"I don't know how to jump," Sixfinger answered quietly.
"So long, then," Hermit said and, suddenly pushing the earth away with
all his might, dashed upwards and vanished behind the wall. It immediately
collapsed, covering him with a layer of sawdust and peatcrumbs. The
resulting mound shivered for some time, then a small hole emerged on its
surface. Sixfinger just managed to catch a glimmer of Hermit's eye -- and
all became completely dark.
Of course Sixfinger knew all one needed to know about the night since
he could remember himself. "It's a natural process," some people would say.
The majority, though, judged that "one must mind one's duty." There were
many shades of opinion, but the same feeling was shared by all: when the
suns, for no apparent reason, went out, everybody struggled briefly and
hopelessly with the agony of fear, fell into a stupor and didn't remember
much until the suns lighted up again. The same thing used to happen to
Sixfinger while he was living in the Socium, but now, perhaps because the
fear of darkness combined with an equally strong fear of being alone and
therefore doubled, he didn't fall into merciful daze. The moan of the people
already died out, but he still crouched beside the mound and cried softly.
He couldn't see anything, and Hermit's voice in the darkness frightened him
so much that he had a bowel movement.
"Listen, stop this pounding," Hermit said. "I can't fall asleep because
of you."
"I can't," Sixfinger answered quietly. "It's my heart. Talk to me,
please?"
"What about?" Hermit asked.
"About anything you want, but talk more."
"Let's perhaps discuss the nature of fear?"
"No, not that!" squeaked Sixfinger.
"Be quiet!" hissed Hermit. "Or all the rats will be here in a moment."
"What rats? What are they?" Sixfinger asked in a chilled voice.
"They are creatures of the night. Actually, of the day as well."
"I have such a bad luck in my life," whispered Sixfinger. "If I only
had the right number of toes, I would be now sleeping with all. My God, what
a fright... Rats..."
"Listen," Hermit said after a pause, "why do you keep saying "God" all
the time? Do all of you here believe in God or what?"
"Nobody knows. There is something of that kind, that's for sure, but
nobody knows what. For example, why does it get dark? Of course, one could
explain it by natural causes. But if one thinks about God, one won't do
anything in one's life..."
"I wonder, what is it that one can do in one's life?" Hermit asked.
"What do you mean? Don't ask such silly questions, as if you don't know
yourself. Everybody wants to get to the Feeder, as close as they can. That's
the law of life."
"Got it. Then why is there all this?"
"What `this'"?
"Well, the Universe, Heaven, the Earth, the suns -- everything."
"What do you mean, why? That's how the world is."
"And how is it?" Hermit asked with interest.
"It's just like that. We move in space and time. According to the laws
of life."
"But where do we move?"
"Who knows where. It's a mystery of ages. You know, one really could
get crazy talking to you."
"No, it's you who makes one crazy. Talk to you about anything, you'd
say it's the law of life, or a mystery of ages."
"So don't talk if you don't like it," Sixfinger said, offended.
"I wouldn't, but you were too afraid of being silent in the darkness."
Sixfinger somehow completely forgot about that. He examined his
feelings and suddenly noticed that he didn't feel any fear at all. This
frightened him so much that he jumped and ran away blindly into the dark,
until he bumped headlong into the invisible World-wall.
He heard Hermit's screeching laugh from far away and cautiously
wandered toward these only sounds in the surrounding total silence and
darkness. When he reached the Hermit's mound, he lay down silently and,
despite the chill, tried to fall asleep. The moment when he succeeded
escaped him.
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2
"Today we are going to climb over the World-wall, you understand?"
Hermit said.
Sixfinger was just about to jump into the "Refuge of the Soul". Now his
Refuges were about as well-built as Hermit's, but the jump itself still
required a long running start, which he was practicing at the moment. The
meaning of Hermit's words struck him right when it was time to jump; as a
result, he rammed into the flimsy edifice so hard that peatcrumbs and
sawdust, instead of covering his body by an even and soft layer, got all
piled up over his head, while his feet lost ground and hung in the air.
Hermit helped him out and repeated:
"Today we shall climb over the World-wall."
During the last few days Sixfinger has heard so many strange things
from Hermit that something in his soul was continually creaking and
thumping. His former life in the Socium now appeared to him as a naive
fantasy or as a nightmarish farce -- he hasn't quite made up his mind yet.
But this was still too much.
The Hermit went on, though:
"The Decisive Stage comes after seventy eclipses, and yesterday was the
sixty-ninth. Numbers rule the universe."
He pointed to a long chain of straws stuck into the turf right under
the World-wall.
"But how? You cannot climb the World-wall -- it is a World-wall! The
name itself... There's nothing beyond it, nothing..." Sixfinger was so
flabbergasted that he missed the dark mysticism of Hermit's explanations,
which otherwise would have certainly upset him.
"Well, so what that there's nothing there? We should actually be quite
happy about it."
"But what are we going to do there?"
"Live there."
"Why, what is so bad about this place?"
"Just that very soon there will be no `this place', you fool."
"What will remain here then?"
"Stay here and you shall find out. Nothing."
Sixfinger felt that he had no certainty whatsoever left in him.
"Why do you have to scare me like that all the time?"
"Stop whining, will you?" muttered Hermit, anxiously eyeing something
in the sky. "It's not that bad there, over the World-wall. Suits me much
better than here, anyway.
He walked over to the ruins of Sixfinger's `Refuge of the Soul' and
started leveling them out with his feet.
"Why are you doing this?" Sixfinger asked him.
"Before one leaves a world, one has to generalize the experience
acquired in it and then destroy all traces of ever having lived there. It's
a tradition."
"Who invented it? "
"What does it matter? Well, I did. You see, there aren't any others
around here. That'll do..."
Hermit surveyed his work -- the place where the ruins have been was
presently as smooth as the rest of the desert around them.
"That's all," he said. "Now we've got to generalize the experience.
Your turn, climb this hummock and get to it."
Sixfinger thought he was short-changed: he was given the harder and,
moreover, a completely unclear task. However, after the first eclipse he
knew better than to argue with Hermit. He shrugged, looked around (in case
somebody from the Socium has wandered here) and climbed the hummock.
"What should I say?"
"Everything you know about the world."
Sixfinger whistled.
"Going to take us quite a while."
"I don't think so," Hermit dryly replied.
"All right. So, our world... That's one idiotic ritual, by the way..."
"Don't get distracted."
"Our world is a regular octagon moving in space uniformly and
rectilinearly. Here we prepare ourselves for the Decisive Stage, the
crowning moment of our happy lives. At any rate, this is the official
formula. Around the perimeter of the world stands the so-called World-wall,
which has objectively appeared as a result of the Laws of Life. In the
center of the world is the two-tiered Feeder, around which our civilization
has been living since ancient times. The place of an individual with respect
to the Feeder is determined by his social worth and services..."
"Haven't heard this before," Hermit interrupted him. "What are
services? And social worth?"
"Well... How should I say... It's when someone gets really close to the
Feeder."
"And who gets there?"
"Like I said, those with most services. Or social worth. I, for
example, had very few services before, and now none at all. Are you saying
you don't know the People's Model of the Universe?"
"No, I don't," Hermit said.
"Are you nuts?.. But then how were you preparing for the Decisive
Stage?"
"I'll tell you later. Go on."
"Well, that's almost all. Outside the zone of the Socium lies the Great
Waste, bordered by the the World-wall. Near it is the place for renegades
like us."
"Clear enough. And where did the log come from? Meaning, all the other
things?"
"Hey, relax. Even the Twenty Closest wouldn't know that. A mystery of
ages."
"So. And what is this mystery of ages?"
"The Law of Life," Sixfinger said, trying to speak soothingly.
Something about the tone of Hermit's question worried him.
"OK. And what is the Law of Life?"
"That is a mystery of ages."
"A mystery of ages?!" Hermit asked with a strangely shrill voice and
started slowly edging towards Sixfinger.
"Hey, what's wrong with you? Stop that!" Sixfinger was genuinely
scared. "It's your ritual after all, not mine!"
But Hermit already came back to his senses.
"All right, I got it. Get down."
Sixfinger climbed down from the hummock, and Hermit took his place.
Serious and concentrated, he kept silent for a some time, as if listening to
something. Then he raised his head and spoke.
"I came here from another world, in the days when you were very young.
To that world I came from yet another one and so on. Altogether I have been
to five worlds. They are much the same as this one and can hardly be
distinguished from each other. The universe where we all live is a huge
closed space. In the language of the Gods it is called the `V. I. Lenin
Broiler Factory',2 but the meaning of this name is unknown."
"You know the language of the Gods?" Sixfinger asked in bewilderment.
"A little. Don't interrupt. There are seventy worlds in the universe,
and we are now in one of them. The worlds are all attached to an
unfathomable black band which is slowly moving in a circle. Above it, on the
visible surface of the sky, are hundreds of identical suns. Thus they do not
move over us, but we are moving under them. Try to picture this."
Sixfinger closed his eyes. His face showed signs of strain.
"No, I can't," he said at last.
"All right, listen on. All seventy worlds in this universe are called
the Chain of the Worlds. At any rate they may be called that. Life exists in
each world, but not at all times. It emerges and vanishes. The Decisive
Stage occurs in the middle of the universe, through which all the worlds
pass one by one. In the language of the Gods it is called `Shop Number One'.
Our world is just about to enter it. When the Decisive Stage is finished and
the renewed world leaves the Shop Number One, everything begins anew. Life
appears, goes through the cycle and in due time is again thrown into the
Shop Number One."
"How do you know all this?" the awed Sixfinger asked in a quiet voice.
"I traveled much," Hermit replied, "and collected bits of secret
knowledge. In one world one thing was known, in another something else."
"Then maybe you know where we come from?"
"I do. What do they say in your world?"
"That it is a given objective reality; such is the Law of Life."
"I see. You are asking about one of the deepest mysteries of the order
of things, and I even doubt I can entrust it to you. But since there's no
one else to share it with anyway, I'll tell you. We come to this world from
white spheres. Actually, those are not quite spheres, they are somewhat
oblong, and larger at one end, but this is not important now.
"Spheres. White spheres," repeated Sixfinger, and fell to the ground as
he stood. The weight of what he has just learned was so great that for a
moment Sixfinger thought he would die. Hermit sprang to his side and shook
him violently. Presently Sixfinger came to his senses.
"What happened to you?" Hermit asked, a bit frightened.
"I.. I remembered! Just like that. We were those white spheres and lay
on long shelves. That place was moist and very warm. Then we started to
break the spheres, and... From somewhere below our world was brought and
then we were inside it... But how come nobody remembers it?"
"There are worlds where it is remembered," said Hermit. "Fifth or sixth
prenatal matrix, big deal. Not so deep, and it's only a part of the truth.
But anyway, they hide away those who do remember, so that they don't
interfere with getting ready for the Decisive Stage, or whatever it is
called. In my world they used to call it `Completion of the Construction',
although no one was building anything."
Obviously, memories of his own world upset Hermit. He fell silent.
"Listen," Sixfinger asked after a while, "where do those white spheres
come from?"
Hermit glanced at him approvingly.
"I needed much more time before I could ask this question. But it is
very complicated. In one ancient legend it is said that these eggs come from
us, but this may well be only a metaphor."
"From us? It's not clear. Where did you hear it?"
"I made it up, of course. As if you can hear anything around these
parts," Hermit said with unexpected melancholy.
"But you said it was an ancient legend."
"Yes. I simply made it up as an ancient legend."
"How? And why?"
"You see, one ancient philosopher, or one can even say a prophet (this
time Sixfinger realized who that was) remarked that it is not always
important what is said, but who says it. Some of the meaning of what I said
was that my words were to play the role of an ancient legend. But you won't
understand anyway..."
Hermit looked at the sky and interrupted himself.
"Enough of this. We must go."
"Where?"
"To the Socium."
Sixfinger stared.
"I though you said we were going to climb the World-wall. What do we
need the Socium for?"
"But do you know what a Socium really is?" Hermit asked in return. "It
is actually a means of climbing the World-wall."
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3
In spite of a complete lack of any objects behind which to hide,
Sixfinger walked through the desert furtively, and the closer they got to
the Socium, the more criminal his gait became. Gradually the huge crowd,
which seemed an immense stirring beast from afar, split into separate
bodies, and one could even see the surprised faces of those who saw Hermit
and Sixfinger approach.
"The main thing," Hermit was whispering his last instructions, "is to
be arrogant. But not too arrogant. We must infuriate them -- but not so that
they tear us apart. Just keep looking at what I will be doing."
"Look, Sixfinger's back!" someone shouted cheerfully. "Hey, you
bastard! Who is it with you?"
This stupid shout brought on Sixfinger a nostalgic wave of childhood
memories, unexpectedly and for no reason. Hermit, who walked behind him,
seemed to feel it and prodded Sixfinger's back.
At the outer edge of the Socium they had no trouble getting through, it
was easy to walk around the crowd-avoiding Observers and the disabled who
lived there. But further on the crowd was thicker, and very soon Hermit and
Sixfinger found it unbearable. They could barely move forward by constantly
barking at the people around them. When they spotted the vibrating roof of
the Feeder over people's heads, they were unable to make a single step
forward.
"It always amazed me," Hermit was quietly telling Sixfinger, "how
wisely it is all organized. Those who are close to the Feeder are happy
because they remember the others who want to take their place. And those who
spend their lives waiting for a space between the ones ahead of them, are
happy because they have hope in their life. This is indeed the harmony and
the unity."
"So you don't like it?" asked a voice from their side.
"No, I don't," Hermit answered.
"And what exactly don't you like?"
"Well, everything," Hermit made a wide gesture toward the crowd, the
grand dome of the Feeder, the yellow glimmering lights in the Heaven and the
distant, barely visible World-wall.
"I see. And where do you think it's better?"
"Nowhere, that's the tragedy of it all! That's the point!" shouted
Hermit passionately. "If it were better someplace else, would I be
discussing this with you here?"
"And your buddy -- is he also of the same opinion?" the voice asked,
"Why is he looking at the ground?"
Sixfinger raised his head (he was trying to minimize his involvement by
staring at his feet) and saw the owner of the voice. His face was obese from
overeating, and one could distinctly see the anatomy of his throat when he
spoke. Sixfinger understood at once that the voice belonged to one of the
Twenty Closest, the very and utmost Conscience of the Epoch3. It seemed that
he was leading a clarification meeting there, as it was done sometimes, just
before Hermit and Sixfinger arrived.
"You are upset, buddies," he said in an unexpectedly friendly tone,
"because you don't participate, with all others, in our preparation for the
Decisive Step. If you did, you'd have no time for such thoughts. Once in a
while even I get such crazy stuff in my head that... And, you know, my work
helps me at those times." And in the same tone of voice he added: "Take
them."
There was a movement in the crowd, and at once Hermit and Sixfinger
were held tightly from all four sides.
"Oh, we couldn't care less about you," Hermit said, his voice just as
friendly. "Where are you going to take us? There's nowhere to take us to.
Well, you could expel us again. As they say, one can't throw it over the
World-wall..."
Then Hermit's face expressed astonishment, and the fat-faced one lifted
his eyes to meet Hermit's stare.
"Hm, an interesting suggestion. We haven't done this before. Of course,
there is this saying, but the will of the people is stronger."
This thought seemed to excite him. He turned and ordered:
"Attention! Line up! We are going to have an unplanned event."
Very soon after that the procession that lead Hermit and Sixfinger
approached the World-wall.
The procession was impressive. The fat-faced one marched first, then
the two assigned to be Old Mothers (nobody, including the fat-faced one,
knew what that meant, it was just a tradition). The tearful Mothers shouted
invectives to Hermit and Sixfinger, weeping over them and condemning them at
the same time. After them the criminals themselves were guided, finally
followed by the mob of the People.
"So," the fat-faced one said when the procession stopped, "the
frightening moment of retaliation has come. I think, my brothers, that we
will all squint when these two renegades dissolve in the void of non-being,
won't we? And let this touching event serve as a beautiful lesson to us all,
to the People. Weep louder, Mothers!"
The Old Mothers fell onto the ground and wept so inconsolably that many
of those present had to look away and swallow hard; but once in a while they
would stand up from the tear-strewn dust and, with gleaming eyes, assaulted
Hermit and Sixfinger with terrible and irrevocable accusations, whereafter
they would fall back exhausted.
"So," the fat-faced one said in a short while, "have you repented? Have
the tears of the Mothers put you to shame?"
"You bet," said a worried Hermit, who was watching the ceremony as well
as some celestial bodies, "but how are you going to throw us over it?"
The fat-faced one pondered. The Old Mothers fell silent, too, then one
of them stood up, from the dust, cleaned himself up and said:
"A ridge?"
"A ridge," Hermit said, "would take about five solstices, and we are
rather impatient to hide our exposed shame in the void."
The fat-faced one squinted slyly, looked at Hermit and nodded
approvingly.
"They understand," he said to one of his men, "they just put up a
pretense. Ask them, maybe they will suggest a way themselves?"
In a few minutes, a live pyramid rose up almost to the very brink of
the World-wall. Those standing at top closed their eyes and hid their faces
lest they, God forbid, catch a glimpse of the place where everything ends.
"Up," was the order, and Hermit and Sixfinger, supporting each other,
walked up the shaky ladder of shoulders and backs to the brink of the Wall.
From above they could see the whole of the quietly observing Socium and
discern some previously unknown details of the Heaven. The thick pipe which
went from the infinity down to the Feeder did not seem as grand as it did
from the earth. Hermit easily jumped on the brink of the World-wall, helped
Sixfinger to sit beside him and shouted:
"All done!"
From his shouting, someone in the living pyramid lost balance; the
pyramid faltered and collapsed -- but nobody, thank God, was hurt.
Sixfinger clutched the cold metal of the Wall and stared at the tiny
upturned faces, at the grayish-brown expanses of his Motherland; he looked
at the large green spot on the World-wall where he spent his childhood. "I
will never see this again," he thought, and although he didn't have much
desire to see it again, he felt a lump in his throat all the same. He
clasped a small piece of turf with a straw glued to it, and mused about the
swift and irreversible changes in his life.
"Farewell, our dear sons!" the Old Mothers cried from below, bowed low
and, still weeping, started throwing heavy peatcrumbs up in the air.
Hermit stood on his tiptoes and cried loudly:
"I always knew
that I will leave
this merciless world..."
Then a big piece of turf hit him, and he fell down, arms and legs
asunder. Sixfinger looked around for the last time and saw someone from the
distant crowd below waving him farewell -- and he waved back. Then he closed
his eyes and stepped back.
He tumbled in the air for a few seconds, and then suddenly bumped
painfully into something solid and opened his eyes. He lay on a black, shiny
surface of unknown material next to the World-wall which looked exactly the
same as from the other side. Hermit stood beside him, his arm extended to
the Wall, and finished reciting his poem:
"But little I thought
the parting happens thus..."
Then he turned to Sixfinger and curtly motioned him to stand up.
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4
Now, marching alongside the huge black band, Sixfinger finally believed
in the truth of Hermit's words. The world they had left was indeed carried
by this band which was slowly moving with respect to other cosmic objects
whose nature was quite unfathomable for Sixfinger; and the suns were
stationary. It became quite clear once they left the band. Their former
world was approaching the green steel gates under which the band
disappeared. Hermit told him that this was the very entrance to the Shop
Number One. Curiously, Sixfinger hardly felt any awe in the face of the many
mysterious objects that filled the Universe; quite on the contrary, a
disappointment and even a slight annoyance were rising in his soul. "And
that is all...?" he thought disgustedly. Afar Sixfinger saw two more worlds
moving with the band, looking rather shabby from his vantage point. At first
Sixfinger thought that one of these was their goal, but halfway through
Hermit ordered him to jump from the stationary border of the band on which
they were now strolling into the bottomless black chasm below.
"It's soft there," he said, but Sixfinger took a step back and shook
his head. Then, without a word, Hermit jumped down, and Sixfinger had to
follow him into the blackness.
This time he almost hurt himself, smashing against the cold stone
surface paved with large brown slabs. The pavement stretched as far as
Sixfinger could see, and it was beautiful.
"What is it?" he breathed.
"Ceramic Tile," Hermit replied with a strange word and changed the
topic. "It will be dark soon," he said, "and we have to reach those parts
over there. We will have to walk in the dark.
Hermit looked seriously worried. Far away Sixfinger glimpsed many cubic
cliffs of a tender yellow hue (`crates', as Hermit called them); between
them were valleys with hills of golden wood shavings. From here it looked
like a happy childhood dream-land.
"Let's go," Hermit said and briskly trotted forward.
"Listen," Sixfinger asked, trying to keep his pace on the slippery
tiles, "how do you know when the night comes?"
"By the clock," Hermit answered. "It is one of the celestial bodies.
Now it's to the right, up there -- that disk with black zigzags."
Sixfinger looked at the fairly familiar detail of the firmament which
he never paid much attention to.
"When some of these black lines take a specific position, sometime
later I'll tell you about it, the lights will go out. It will happen very
soon now. Count to ten."
"One, two," Sixfinger started, and suddenly it was dark.
"Don't fall behind," Hermit warned, "or you'll get lost."
He could have spared his warning -- Sixfinger was right at his heels.
The only light left in the Universe was a yellow ray slanting down from
under the green gates of the Shop Number One. The place where they were now
heading lay not far from those gates, but, according to Hermit, it was the
safest one.
Only the glowing crack beneath the gates far away and a few adjacent
tiles were visible now. Sixfinger was lost in weird feelings. It seemed to
him that the darkness around them was squeezing them, just as the crowd did
not long ago. Danger was everywhere, he felt it with all his skin as a
chilling draught from all directions at once. When fear was about to take
the better of him, he raised his eyes from the advancing floor tiles to the
yellow band of light ahead, and was reminded of the Socium, which looked
almost the same from the distance. He imagined that they were going to the
realm of fire spirits, and he was going to tell that to Hermit, when the
latter stopped abruptly and raised his hand.
"Quiet," he whispered. "Rats, to the right."
There was nowhere to run -- all around them stretched the tiles, and
the band of light was too far away. Hermit turned to the right and assumed a
strange posture, motioning Sixfinger to hide behind his back. Sixfinger did
just that, with surprising willingness and alacrity.
At first he didn't notice much, but soon he felt, rather than saw, the
movement of a huge, powerful body in the darkness. It stopped right on the
brink of visibility.
"She waits," Hermit said quietly, "for our next step. If we move, she
will attack."
"Yeah, right," the rat emerged from the darkness, "with the rage of
evil incarnate. As a true creature of Night."
"Oomph," Hermit sighed in relief. "One-Eye! I thought we were really in
trouble. Meet my friend."
Sixfinger apprehensively looked at the clever conical snout with large
whiskers and two black beady eyes.
"One-Eye," the rat said and wagged her obscenely nude tail.
"Sixfinger," he introduced himself and asked, "Why are you called
One-Eye?
"My third eye is open," she replied, "and there's only one. In some
sense all those with the third eye open are one-eyed."
"But what is the..." Sixfinger started but he was interrupted by
Hermit.
"Shall we enjoy a stroll together," he gallantly proposed, "to those
crates? Night road is dull without a conversation."
Sixfinger felt deeply insulted.
"My pleasure," agreed One-Eye, and, turning her side to Sixfinger (only
now he realized how huge and muscular her body really was), trotted
alongside Hermit. He had to quicken his step considerably to keep up with
her. Sixfinger ran in the rear, glancing at the rat's hind legs and the
movements of her powerful muscles and thinking about what could have
happened to them, had not One-Eye been Hermit's chum. He tried very hard not
to step on her tail. Judging by how fast their conversation began to sound
like a continuation of some old dispute, they knew each other long indeed.
"Freedom? My God, what is it?" One-Eye was asking sarcastically. "Is it
when, alone and afraid, you run around the entire factory and for the tenth
or umpteenth time avoid the knife? Is that freedom?"
"You are again confusing everything," Hermit answered. "This is only
search for freedom. I will never agree with the infernal picture of the
world you are painting. Perhaps it's because you feel alien in this Universe
created for us."
"But the rats believe that it was created for them. It's not that I
agree with them; you are right, of course, but not entirely right, and not
where it really matters. You say that this Universe was created for your
folk? In reality it was created because of you, but not for you. Do you
understand?"
Hermit hung his head and strolled silently for some time.
"Alright," said One-Eye. "I only wanted to say goodbye. I thought you'd
show up a bit later, but we met anyway. I am leaving tomorrow."
"Where to?"
"Beyond the borders of everything one can talk about. An old burrow
brought me into a hollow concrete pipe that leads so far away that I find it
hard to think about it. I met a couple of other rats there -- they say it
goes deeper and deeper, and there, far below, opens into a different
Universe. Only male gods in identical green clothes live there. They perform
complex rites around huge idols standing in deep shafts.
The rat slowed down.
"Here I must turn right," she said. "And the food in there is beyond
any description. This Universe could fit into just one of those shafts.
Listen, why don't you come with me?"
"No," Hermit said. "Down is not our way."
It seemed that he remembered Si1xfinger for the first time during this
talk.
"Well," said One-Eye, "then I wish you luck on your way, whatever it
turns out to be. You know how much I love you."
"I too love you a lot, One-Eye, and hope that the thought of you will
sustain me. I wish you luck."
"Farewell!" said the rat, nodded to Sixfinger, and vanished into the
darkness as quickly as she appeared.
Hermit and Sixfinger made the rest of the way in silence. They reached
the crates, crossed a few hills of wood shavings and finally came to the end
of their journey. Waiting for them was a little depression in the shavings
filled with many long and soft rags, dimly illuminated by the light from the
Shop Number One. Close by at the wall stood a vast many-edged structure;
Hermit said that once it was radiating so much heat that it could not be
approached. Hermit was definitely in bad spirits. He kept turning in the
rags preparing to sleep, and Sixfinger decided not to bother him with any
more talk, the more so that he was sleepy himself. He quickly wrapped some
rags around him and sank into oblivion.
He was awakened by the sounds of screeching steel, of pounding against
wood, and cries filled with such unspeakable despair that he immediately
rushed to Hermit's side.
"What's that?!"
"Your world is passing through the Decisive Stage," Hermit replied.
"???"
"Death has come," Hermit said simply, turned away, pulled a rag over
himself and slept.
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5
Hermit woke up, glanced at a shivering, sobbing Sixfinger in his
corner, chuckled and searched through his rags. He soon produced about a
dozen identical iron objects which resembled pieces cut from a thick
hexagonal pipe.
"Look at this," he said to Sixfinger.
"What is it?" Sixfinger asked.
"The gods call them `nuts'".
Sixfinger wanted to ask something else, but suddenly waved his hand and
started weeping again.
"Say, what is it with you?" Hermit asked.
"They all died," muttered Sixfinger, "all of them..."
"So what," Hermit said. "You shall die too. I can even assure you that
both you and they will remain dead for an equal duration of time."
"It's a pity, all the same."
"Whom do you pity? Maybe, the Old Mothers? Or maybe that one, from the
Twenty Closest?"
"Do you remember when they threw us off the Wall?" Sixfinger asked,
"Everybody was ordered to close their eyes. But I waved to them, and
somebody waved back to me. When I think that he is also dead... And what
made him wave is dead, too..."
"Yes," said a smiling Hermit, "this is in fact very sad."
The silence was broken only by mechanical sounds behind the green gates
into which Sixfinger's home world had disappeared.
"Listen," Sixfinger said after he was done crying. "What happens after
death?"
"It's hard to say," Hermit answered. "I had many visions about that,
but I don't know how reliable they are."
"Would you tell me, please?"
"After death we are, as a rule, throw