they'd work for five minutes, then wander off or go hunting."
Jack flushed.
"We want meat."
"Well, we haven't got any yet. And we want shelters. Besides, the rest
of your hunters came back hours ago. They've been swimming."
"I went on," said Jack. "I let them go. I had to go on. I-"
He tried to convey the compulsion to track down and kill that was
swallowing him up.
"I went on. I thought, by myself-"
The madness came into his eyes again.
"I thought I might loll."
"But you didn't."
"I thought I might."
Some hidden passion vibrated in Ralph's voice.
"But you haven't yet."
His invitation might have passed as casual, were it not for the
undertone.
"You wouldn't care to help with the shelters, I suppose?"
"We want meat-"
"And we don't get it."
Now the antagonism was audible.
"But I shall! Next time! I've got to get a barb on this spear! We
wounded a pig and the spear fell out. If we could only make barbs-"
"We need shelters."
Suddenly Jack shouted in rage.
"Are you accusing-?"
"All I'm saying is we've worked dashed hard. That's all."
They were both red in the face and found looking at each other
difficult. Ralph rolled on his stomach and began to play with the grass.
"If it rains like when we dropped in well need shelters all right. And
then another thing. We need shelters because of the-"
He paused for a moment and they both pushed their anger away. Then he
went on with the safe, changed subject.
"You've noticed, haven't you?"
Jack put down his spear and squatted.
'Noticed what?"
"Well. They're frightened."
He rolled over and peered into Jack's fierce, dirty face.
"I mean the way things are. They dream. You can hear 'em. Have you been
awake at night?"
Jack shook his head.
"They talk and scream. The littluns. Even some of the others. As if-"
"As if it wasn't a good island." .
Astonished at the interruption, they looked up at Simon's serious face.
"As if," said Simon, "the beastie, the beastie or the snake-thing, was
real. Remember?"
The two older boys flinched when they heard the shameful syllable.
Snakes were not mentioned now, were not mentionable.
"As if this wasn't a good island," said Ralph slowly. "Yes, that's
right."
Jack sat up and stretched out his legs.
"Crackers. Remember when we went exploring?"
They grinned at each other, remembering the glamour of the first day.
Ralph went on.
"So we need shelters as a sort of-"
"Home."
"That's right."
Jack drew up his legs, clasped his knees, and frowned in an effort to
attain clarity.
"All the same-in the forest. I mean when you're hunting, not when
you're getting fruit, of course, but when you're on your own-"
He paused for a moment, not sure if Ralph would take him seriously.
"Go on."
"If you're hunting sometimes you catch yourself feeling as if-" He
flushed suddenly. "There's nothing in it of course. Just a feeling. But you
can feel as if you're not hunting, but-being hunted, as if something's
behind you all the time in the jungle."
They were silent again: Simon intent, Ralph incredulous and faintly
indignant. He sat up, rubbing one shoulder with a dirty hand.
"Well, I don't know."
Jack leapt to his feet and spoke very quickly.
"That's how you can feel in the forest. Of course there's nothing in
it. Only-only-"
He took a few rapid steps toward the beach, then came back.
"Only I know how they feel. See? That's all."
"The best thing we can do is get ourselves rescued."
Jack had to think for a moment before he could remember what rescue
was.
"Rescue? Yes, of course! All the same, I'd like to catch a pig first-"
He snatched up his spear and dashed it into the: ground. The opaque, mad
look came into his eyes again. Ralph looked at him critically through his
tangle of fair hair.
"So long as your hunters remember the fire-"
"You and your fire-"
The two boys trotted down the beach, and, turning at the water's edge,
looked back at the pink mountain. The trickle of smoke sketched a chalky
line up the solid blue of the sky, wavered high up and faded. Ralph frowned.
"I wonder how far off you could see that"
"Miles."
"We don't make enough smoke."
The bottom part of the trickle, as though conscious of their gaze,
thickened to a creamy blur which crept up the feeble column.
"They've put on green branches," muttered Ralph. "I wonder!" He screwed
up his eyes and swung round to search the horizon."
"Got it!"
Jack shouted so loudly that Ralph jumped.
"What? Where? Is it a ship?"
But Jack was pointing to the high declivities that led down from the
mountain to the flatter part of the island.
"Of course! They'll Be up there-they must, when the sun's too hot-"
Ralph gazed bewildered at his rapt face.
"-they get up high. High up and in the shade, resting during the heat,
like cows at home-"
"I thought you saw a ship!"
"We could steal up on one-paint our faces so they wouldn't see-perhaps
surround them and then-"
Indignation took away Ralph's control.
"I was talking about smoke! Don't you want to be rescued? All you can
talk about is pig, pig, pig!"
"But we want meat!"
"And I work all day with nothing but Simon and you come back and don't
even notice the huts!"
"I was working too-"
"But you like it!" shouted Ralph. "You want to hunt! While I-"
They faced each other on the bright beach, astonished at the rub of
feeling. Ralph looked away first, pretending interest in a group of littluns
on the sand. From beyond the platform came the shouting of the hunters in
the swimming pool. On the end of the platform Piggy was lying flat, looking
down into the brilliant water.
"People don't help much."
He wanted to explain how people were never quite what you thought they
were.
"Simon. He helps." He pointed at the shelters.
"All the rest rushed off. He's done as much as I have. Only-"
"Simon's always about."
Ralph started back to the shelters with Jack by his side.
"Do a bit for you," muttered Jack, "before I have a bathe."
"Don't bother."
But when they reached the shelters Simon was not to be seen. Ralph put
his head in the hole, withdrew it, and turned to Jack.
"He's buzzed off."
"Got fed up," said Jack, "and gone for a bathe."
Ralph frowned.
"He's queer. He's funny."
Jack nodded, as much for the sake of agreeing as anything, and by tacit
consent they left the shelter and went toward the bathing pool.
"And then," said Jack, "when I've had a bathe and something to eat,
I'll just trek over to the other side of the mountain and see if I can see
any traces. Coming?"
"But the sun's nearly set!"
"I might have time-"
They walked along, two continents of experience and feeling, unable to
communicate.
"If I could only get a pig!"
"I'll come back and go on with the shelter."
They looked at each other, baffled, in love and hate. All the warm salt
water of the bathing pool and the shouting and splashing and laughing were
only just sufficient to bring them together again.
Simon was not in the bathing pool as they had expected.
When the other two had trotted down the beach to look back at the
mountain he had followed them for a few yards and then stopped. He had stood
frowning down at a pile of sand on the beach where somebody had been trying
to build a little house or hut Then he turned his back on this and walked
into the forest with an air of purpose. He was a small, skinny boy, his chin
pointed, and his eyes so bright they had deceived Ralph into thinking him
delightfully gay and wicked. The coarse mop of black hair was long and swung
down, almost concealing a low, broad forehead. He wore the remains of shorts
and his feet were bare like Jack's. Always darkish in color, Simon was
burned by the sun to a deep tan that glistened with sweat.
He picked his way up the scar, passed the great rock where Ralph had
climbed on the first morning, then turned off to his right among the trees.
He walked with an accustomed tread through the acres of fruit trees, where
the least energetic could find an easy if unsatisfying meal. Flower and
fruit grew together on the same tree and everywhere was the scent of
ripeness and the booming of a million bees at pasture. Here the littlums who
had run after him caught up with him. They talked, cried out unintelligibly,
lugged him toward the trees. Then, amid the roar of bees in the afternoon
sunlight, Simon found for them the fruit they could not reach, pulled off
the choicest from up in the foliage, passed them back down to the endless,
outstretched hands. When he had satisfied them he paused and looked round.
The littluns watched him inscrutably over double handfuls of ripe fruit.
Simon turned away from them and went where the just perceptible path
led him. Soon high jungle closed in. Tall trunks bore unexpected pale
flowers all the way up to the dark canopy where life went on clamorously.
The air here was dark too, and the creepers dropped their ropes like the
rigging of foundered ships. His feet left prints in the soft soil and the
creepers shivered throughout their lengths when he bumped them.
He came at last to a place where more sunshine fell. Since they had not
so far to go for light the creepers had woven a great mat that hung at the
side of an open space in the jungle; for here a patch of rock came close to
the surface and would not allow more than little plants and ferns to grow.
The whole space was walled with dark aromatic bushes, and was a bowl of heat
and light. A great tree, fallen across one comer, leaned against the trees
that still stood arid a rapid climber flaunted red and yellow sprays right
to the top.
Simon paused. He looked over his shoulder as Jack had done at the close
ways behind him and glanced swiftly round to confirm that he was utterly
alone. For a moment his movements were almost furtive. Then he bent down and
wormed his way into the center of the mat. The creepers and the bushes were
so close that he left his sweat on them and they pulled together behind him.
When he was secure in the middle he was in a little cabin screened off from
the open space by a few leaves. He squatted down, parted the leaves arid
looked out into the clearing. Nothing moved but a pair of gaudy butterflies
that danced round each other in the hot air. Holding his breath he cocked a
critical ear at the sounds of the island. Evening was advancing toward the
island; the sounds of the bright fantastic birds, the bee-sounds, even the
crying of the gulls that were returning to their roosts among the square
rocks, were fainter. The deep sea breaking miles away on the reef made an
undertone less perceptible than the susurration of the blood.
Simon dropped the screen of leaves back into place. The slope of the
bars of honey-colored sunlight decreased; they slid up the bushes, passed
over the green candle-like buds, moved up toward tile canopy, and darkness
thickened under the trees. With the fading of the light the riotous colors
died and the heat and urgency cooled away. The candle-buds stirred. Their
green sepals drew back a little and the white tips of the flowers rose
delicately to meet the open air.
Now the sunlight had lifted clear of the open space and withdrawn from
the sky. Darkness poured out, submerging the ways between the trees tin they
were dim and strange as the bottom of the sea. The candle-buds opened their
wide white flowers glimmering under the light that pricked down from the
first stars. Their scent spilled out into the air and took possession of the
island.
CHAPTER FOUR
Painted Faces and Long Hair
The first rhythm that they became used to was the slow swing from dawn
to quick dusk. They accepted the pleasures of morning, the bright sun, the
whelming sea and sweet air, as a time when play was good and life so full
that hope was not necessary and therefore forgotten. Toward noon, as the
floods of light fell more nearly to the perpendicular, the stark colors of
the morning were smoothed in pearl and opalescence; and the heat-as though
the impending sun's height gave it momentum- became a blow that they ducked,
running to the shade and lying there, perhaps even sleeping.
Strange things happened at midday. The glittering sea rose up, moved
apart in planes of blatant impossibility; the coral reef and the few stunted
palms that clung to the more elevated parts would float up into the sky,
would quiver, be plucked apart, run like raindrops on a wire or be repeated
as in an odd succession of mirrors. Sometimes land loomed where there was no
land and flicked out like a bubble as the children watched. Piggy discounted
all this learnedly as a "mirage"; and since no boy could reach even the reef
over the stretch of water where the snapping sharks waited, they grew
accustomed to these mysteries and ignored them, just as they ignored the
miraculous, throbbing stars. At midday the illusions merged into the sky and
there the sun gazed down like an angry eye. Then, at the end of the
afternoon, the mirage subsided and the horizon became level and blue and
clipped as the sun declined. That was another time of comparative coolness
but menaced by the coming of the dark. When the sun sank, darkness dropped
on the island like an extinguisher and soon the shelters were full of
restlessness, under the remote stars.
Nevertheless, the northern European tradition of work, play, and food
right through the day, made it impossible for them to adjust themselves
wholly to this new rhythm. The littlun Percival had early crawled into a
shelter and stayed there for two days, talking, singing, and crying, till
they thought him batty and were faintly amused. Ever since then he had been
peaked, red-eyed, and miserable; a littlun who played little and cried
often.
The smaller boys were known now by the generic title of "littluns." The
decrease in size, from Ralph down, was gradual; and though there was a
dubious region inhabited by Simon and Robert and Maurice, nevertheless no
one had any difficulty in recognizing biguns at one end and littluns at the
other. The undoubted littluns, those aged about six, led a quite distinct,
and at the same time intense, life of their own. They ate most of the day,
picking fruit where they could reach it and not particular about ripeness
and quality. They were used now to stomach-aches and a sort of chronic
diarrhoea. They suffered untold terrors in the dark and huddled together for
comfort. Apart from food and sleep, they found time for play, aimless and
trivial, in the white sand by the bright water. They cried for their mothers
much less often than might have been expected; they were very brown, and
filthily dirty. They obeyed the summons of the conch, partly because Ralph
blew it, and he was big enough to be a link with the adult world of
authority; and partly because they enjoyed the entertainment of the
assemblies. But otherwise they seldom bothered with the biguns and their
passionately emotional and corporate life was their own.
They had built castles in the sand at the bar of the little river.
These castles were about one foot high and were decorated with shells,
withered flowers, and interesting stones. Round the castles was a complex of
marks, tracks, walls, railway lines, that were of significance only if
inspected with the eye at beach-level. The littluns played here, if not
happily at least with absorbed attention; and often as many as three of them
would play the same game together.
Three were playing here now. Henry was the biggest of them. He was also
a distant relative of that other boy whose mulberry-marked face had not been
seen since the evening of the great fire; but he was not old enough to
understand this, and if he had been told that the other boy had gone home in
an aircraft, he would have accepted the statement without fuss or disbelief.
Henry was a bit of a leader this afternoon, because the other two were
Percival and Johnny, the smallest boys on the island. Percival was
mouse-colored and had not been very attractive even to his mother; Johnny
was well built, with fair hair and a natural belligerence. Just now he was
being obedient because he was interested; and the three children, kneeling
in the sand, were at peace.
Roger and Maurice came out of the forest. They were relieved from duty
at the fire and had come down for a swim. Roger led the way straight through
the castles, kicking them over, burying the flowers, scattering the chosen
stones. Maurice followed, laughing, and added to the destruction. The three
littluns paused in their game and looked up. As it happened, the particular
marks in which they were interested had not been touched, so they made no
protest. Only Percival began to whimper with an eyeful of sand and Maurice
hurried away. In his other life Maurice had received chastisement for
filling a younger eye with sand. Now, though there was no parent to let fall
a heavy hand, Maurice still felt the unease of wrongdoing. At the back of
his mind formed the uncertain outlines of an excuse. He muttered something
about a swim and broke into a trot.
Roger remained, watching the littluns. He was not noticeably darker
than when he had dropped in, but the shock of black hair, down his nape and
low on his forehead, seemed to suit his gloomy face and made what had seemed
at first an unsociable remoteness into something forbidding. Percival
finished his whimper and went on playing, for the tears had washed the sand
away. Johnny watched him with china-blue eyes; then began to fling up sand
in a shower, and presently Percival was crying again.
When Henry tired of his play and wandered off along the beach, Roger
followed him, keeping beneath the palms and drifting casually in the same
direction. Henry walked at a distance from the palms and the shade because
he was too young to keep himself out of the sun. He went down the beach and.
busied himself at the water's edge. The great Pacific tide was coming in and
every few seconds the relatively still water of the lagoon heaved forwards
an inch, There were creatures that lived in this last fling of the sea, tiny
transparencies that came questing in with the water over the hot, dry sand.
With impalpable organs of sense they examined this new field. Perhaps food
had appeared where at the last incursion there had been none; bird
droppings, insects perhaps, any of the strewn detritus of landward life.
Lake a myriad of tiny teeth in a saw, the transparencies came scavenging
over the beach.
This was fascinating to Henry. He poked about with a bit of stick, that
itself was wave-worn and whitened and a vagrant, and tried to control the
motions of the scavengers. He made little runnels that the tide filled and
tried to crowd them with creatures. He became absorbed beyond mere happiness
as he felt himself exercising control over living things. He talked to them,
urging them, ordering them. Driven back by the tide, his footprints became
bays in which they were trapped and gave him the illusion of mastery. He
squatted on his hams at the water's edge, bowed, with a shock of hair
falling over his forehead and past his eyes, and the afternoon sun emptied
down invisible arrows.
Roger waited too. At first he had hidden behind a great palm; but
Henry's absorption with the transparencies was so obvious that at last he
stood out in full view. He looked along the beach. Percival had gone off,
crying, and Johnny was left in triumphant possession of the castles. He sat
there, crooning to himself and throwing sand at an imaginary Percival.
Beyond him, Roger could see the platform and the glints of spray where Ralph
and Simon and Piggy and Maurice were diving in the pool. He listened
carefully but could only just hear them.
A sudden breeze shook the fringe of palm trees, so that the fronds
tossed and fluttered. Sixty feet above Roger, several nuts, fibrous lumps as
big as rugby balls, were loosed from their stems. They fell about him with a
series of hard thumps and he was not touched. Roger did not consider his
escape, but looked from the nuts to Henry and back again.
The subsoil beneath the palm trees was a raised beach, and generations
of palms had worked loose in this the stones that had lain on the sands of
another shore. Roger stooped, picked up a stone, aimed, and threw it at
Henry - threw it to miss. The stone, that token of preposterous time,
bounced five yards to Henry's right and fell in the water. Roger gathered a
handful of stones and began to throw them. Yet there was a space round
Henry, perhaps six yards in diameter, into which, he dare not throw. Here,
invisible yet strong, was the taboo of the old life. Round the squatting
child was the protection of parents and school and policemen and the law.
Roger's arm was conditioned by a civilization that knew nothing of him and
was in ruins.
Henry was surprised by the plopping sounds in the water. He abandoned
the noiseless transparencies and pointed at the center of the spreading
rings like a setter. This side and that the stones fell, and Henry turned
obediently but always too late to see the stones in the air. At last he saw
one and laughed, looking for the friend who was teasing him. But Roger had
whipped behind the palm again, was leaning against it breathing quickly, his
eyelids fluttering. Then Henry lost interest in stones and wandered off..
"Roger."
Jack was standing under a tree about ten yards away. When Roger opened
his eyes and saw him, a darker shadow crept beneath the swarthiness of his
skin; but Jack noticed nothing. He was eager, impatient, beckoning, so that
Roger went to him.
There was a small pool at the end of the river, dammed back by sand and
full of white water-lilies and needle-like reeds. Here Sam and Eric were
waiting, and Bill Jack, concealed from the sun, knelt by the pool and opened
the two large leaves that he carried. One of them contained white clay, and
the other red. By them lay a stick of charcoal brought down from the fire.
Jack explained to Roger as he worked.
"They don't smell me. They see me, I think. Something pink, under the
trees."
He smeared on the clay.
"If only I'd some green!"
He turned a halt-concealed face up to Roger and answered the
incomprehension of his gaze.
"For hunting. Like in the war. You know-dazzle paint Like things trying
to look like something else-" He twisted in the urgency of telling. "-lake
moths on a tree trunk."
Roger understood and nodded gravely. The twins moved toward Jack and
began to protest timidly about something. Jack waved them away.
"Shut up."
He rubbed the charcoal stick between the patches of red and white on
his face.
"No. You two come with me."
He peered at his reflection and disliked it. He bent down, took up a
double handful of lukewarm water and rubbed the mess from his face. Freckles
and sandy eyebrows appeared.
Roger smiled, unwillingly.
"You don't half look a mess."
Jack planned his new face. He made one cheek and one eye-socket white,
then he rubbed red over the other half of his face and slashed a black bar
of charcoal across from right ear to left jaw. He looked in the pool for his
reflection, but his breathing troubled the mirror.
"Samneric. Get me a coconut. An empty one."
He knelt, holding the shell of water. A rounded patch of sunlight fell
on his face and a brightness appeared in the depths of the water. He looked
in astonishment, no longer at himself but at an awesome stranger. He spilt
the water and leapt to his feet, laughing excitedly. Beside the pool his
sinewy body held up a mask that drew their eyes and appalled them. He began
to dance and his laughter became a bloodthirsty snarling. He capered toward
Bill, and the mask was a thing on its own, behind which Jack hid, liberated
from shame and self-consciousness. The face of red and white and black swung
through the air and jigged toward Bill. Bill started up laughing; then
suddenly he fell silent and blundered away through the bushes.
Jack rushed toward the twins.
"The rest are making a line. Come on!"
"But-"
"-we-"
"Come on! I'll creep up and stab-"
The mask compelled them.
Ralph climbed out of the bathing pool and trotted up the beach and sat
in the shade beneath the palms. His fair hair was plastered over his
eyebrows and he pushed it back. Simon was floating in the water and kicking
with his feet, and Maurice was practicing diving. Piggy was mooning about,
aimlessly picking up things and discarding them. The rock-pools which so
fascinated him were covered by the tide, so he was without an interest until
the tide went back. Presently, seeing Ralph under the palms, he came and sat
by him.
Piggy wore the remainders of a pair of shorts, his fat body was golden
brown, and the glasses still flashed when he looked at anything. He was the
only boy on the island whose hair never seemed to grow. The rest were
shock-headed, but Piggy's hair still lay in wisps over his head as though
baldness were his natural state and this imperfect covering would soon go,
like the velvet on a young stag's antlers.
"I've been thinking," he said, "about a clock. We could make a sundial
We could put a stick in the sand, and then-"
The effort to express the mathematical processes involved was too
great. He made a few passes instead.
"And an airplane, and a TV set," said Ralph sourly, "and a steam
engine."
Piggy shook his head.
"You have to have a lot of metal things for that," he said, "and we
haven't got no metal. But we got a stick."
Ralph turned and smiled involuntarily. Piggy was a bore; his fat, his
ass-mar and his matter-of-fact ideas were dull, but there was always a
little pleasure to be got out of pulling his leg, even if one did it by
accident.
Piggy saw the smile and misinterpreted it as friendliness. There had
grown up tacitly among the biguns the opinion that Piggy was an outsider,
not only by accent, which did not matter, but by fat, and ass-mar, and
specs, and a certain disinclination for manual labor. Now, finding that
something he had said made Ralph smile, he rejoiced and pressed his
advantage.
"We got a lot of sticks. We could have a sundial each. Then we should
know what the time was."
"A fat lot of good that would be."
"You said you wanted things done. So as we could be rescued."
"Oh, shut up."
He leapt to his feet and trotted back to the pool, just as
Maurice did a rather poor dive. Ralph was glad of a chance to change
the subject. He shouted as Maurice came to the surface.
"Belly flop! Belly flop!"
Maurice flashed a smile at Ralph who slid easily into the water. Of all
the boys, he was the most at home there; but today, irked by the mention of
rescue, the useless, footling mention of rescue, even the green depths of
water and the shattered, golden sun held no balm. Instead of remaining and
playing, he swam with steady strokes under Simon and crawled out of the
other side of the pool to lie there, sleek and streaming like a seal. Piggy,
always clumsy, stood up and came to stand by him, so mat Ralph rolled on his
stomach and pretended not to see. The mirages had died away and gloomily he
ran his eye along the taut blue line of the horizon.
The next moment he was on his feet and shouting.
"Smoke! Smoke!"
Simon tried to sit up in the water and got a mouthful. Maurice, who had
been standing ready to dive, swayed back on his heels, made a bolt for the
platform, then swerved back to the grass under the palms. There he started
to pull on his tattered shorts, to be ready for anything.
Ralph stood, one hand holding back his hair, the other clenched. Simon
was climbing out of the water. Piggy was rubbing his glasses on his shorts
and squinting at the sea. Maurice had got both legs through one leg of his
shorts. Of all the boys, only Ralph was still.
1 can't see no smoke," said Piggy incredulously. "I can't see no smoke,
Ralph-where is it?"
Ralph said nothing. Now both his hands were clenched over his forehead
so that the fair hair was kept out of his eyes. He was leaning forward and
already the salt was whitening his body.
"Ralph-where s the ship?"
Simon stood by, looking from Ralph to the horizon. Maurice's trousers
gave way with a sigh and he abandoned them as a wreck, rushed toward the
forest, and then came back again.
The smoke was a tight little knot on the horizon and was uncoiling
slowly. Beneath the smoke was a dot that might be a funnel. Ralph's face was
pale as he spoke to himself.
They'll see our smoke."
Piggy was looking in the right direction now.
"It don't look much."
He turned round and peered up at the mountain. Ralph continued to watch
the ship, ravenously. Color was coming back into his face. Simon stood by
him, silent.
"I know I can't see very much," said Piggy, "but have we got any
smoke?"
Ralph moved impatiently, still watching the ship.
"The smoke on the mountain."
Maurice came running, and stared out to sea. Both Simon and Piggy were
looking up at the mountain. Piggy screwed up his face but Simon cried out as
though he had hurt himself.
"Ralph! Ralph!"
The quality of his speech twisted Ralph on the sand.
"You tell me," said Piggy anxiously. "Is there a signal?"
Ralph looked back at the dispersing smoke on the horizon, then up at
the mountain.
"Ralph-please! Is there a signal?"
Simon put out his hand, timidly, to touch Ralph; but Ralph started to
run, splashing through the shallow end of the bathing pool, across the hot,
white sand and under the palms. A moment later he was battling with the
complex undergrowth that was already engulfing the scar. Simon ran after
him, then Maurice. Piggy shouted.
"Ralph! Please-Ralph!"
Then he too started to run, stumbling over Maurice's discarded shorts
before he was across the terrace. Behind the four boys, the smoke moved
gently along the horizon; and on the beach, Henry and Johnny were throwing
sand at Percival who was crying quietly again; and all three were in
complete ignorance of the excitement.
By the time Ralph had reached the landward end of the scar he was using
precious breath to swear. He did desperate violence to his naked body among
the rasping creepers so that blood was sliding over him. Just where the
steep ascent of the mountain began, he stopped. Maurice was only a few yards
behind him.
"Piggy's specs!" shouted Ralph. "If the fire's all out, well need
them-"
He stopped shouting and swayed on his feet. Piggy was only just
visible, bumbling up from the beach. Ralphlooked at the horizon, then up to
the mountain. Was it better to fetch Piggy's glasses, or would the ship have
gone? Or if they climbed on, supposing the fire was all out, and they had to
watch Piggy crawling nearer and the ship sinking under the horizon? Balanced
on a high peak of need, agonized by indecision, Ralph cried out:
"Oh God, oh God!"
Simon, struggling with bushes, caught his breath. His face was twisted.
Ralph blundered on, savaging himself, as the wisp of smoke moved on.
The fire was dead. They saw that straight away; saw what they had
really known down on the beach when the smoke of home had beckoned. The fire
was out, smokeless and dead; the watchers were gone. A pile of unused fuel
lay ready.
Ralph turned to the sea. The horizon stretched, impersonal once more,
barren of all but the faintest trace of smoke. Ralph ran stumbling along the
rocks, saved himself on the edge of the pink cliff, and screamed at the
ship.
"Come back! Come back!"
He ran backwards and forwards along the cliff, his face always to the
sea, and his voice rose insanely.
"Come back! Come back!"
Simon and Maurice arrived. Ralph looked at them with unwinking eyes.
Simon turned away, smearing the water from his cheeks. Ralph reached inside
himself for the worst word he knew.
"They let the bloody fire go out."
He looked down the unfriendly side of the mountain. Piggy arrived, out
of breath and whimpering like a littlun. Ralph clenched his fist and went
very red. The intent-ness of his gaze, the bitterness of his voice, pointed
for him.
"There they are."
A procession had appeared, far down among the pink stones that lay near
the water's edge. Some of the boys wore black caps but otherwise they were
almost naked. They lifted sticks in the air together whenever they came to
an easy patch. They were chanting, something to do with the bundle that the
errant twins carried so carefully. Ralph picked out Jack easily, even at
that distance, tall, red-haired, and inevitably leading the procession.
Simon looked now, from Ralph to Jack, as he had looked from Ralph to
the horizon, and what he saw seemed to make him afraid. Ralph said nothing
more, but waited while the procession came nearer. The chant was audible but
at that distance still wordless. Behind Jack walked the twins, carrying a
great stake on their shoulders. The gutted carcass of a pig swung from the
stake, swinging heavily as the twins toiled over the uneven ground. The pigs
head hung down with gaping neck and seemed to search for something on the
ground. At last the words of the chant floated up to them, across the bowl
of blackened wood and ashes.
"Kill the pig. Cut her throat. Spill her blood."
Yet as the words became audible, the procession reached the steepest
part of the mountain, and in a minute or two the chant had died away. Piggy
sniveled and Simon shushed him quickly as though he had spoken too loudly in
church.
Jack, his face smeared with clays, reached the top first and hailed
Ralph excitedly, with lifted spear.
"Look! We've killed a pig-we stole up on them-we got in a circle-"
Voices broke in from the hunters.
"We got in a circle-"
"We crept up-"
The pig squealed-"
The twins stood with the pig swinging between them, dropping black
gouts on the rock. They seemed to share one wide, ecstatic grin. Jack had
too many things to tell Ralph at once. Instead, he danced a step or two,
then remembered his dignity and stood still, grinning. He noticed blood on
his hands and grimaced distastefully, looked for something on which to clean
them, then wiped them on his shorts and laughed.
Ralph spoke.
"You let the fire go out."
Jack checked, vaguely irritated by this irrelevance but too happy to
let it worry him.
"We can light the fire again. You should have been with us, Ralph. We
had a smashing time. The twins got knocked over-"
"We hit the pig-"
"-I fell on top-"
"I cut the pig's throat," said Jack, proudly, and yet twitched as he
said it. "Can I borrow yours, Ralph, to make a nick in the hilt?"
The boys chattered and danced. The twins continued to grin.
There was lashings of blood," said Jack, laughing and shuddering, "you
should have seen it!"
"We'll go hunting every day-"
Ralph spoke again, hoarsely. He had not moved.
"You let the fire go out."
This repetition made Jack uneasy. He looked at the twins and then back
at Ralph.
"We had to have them in the hunt," he said, "or there wouldn't have
been enough for a ring."
He flushed, conscious of a fault.
"The fire's only been out an hour or two. We can light up again-"
He noticed Ralph's scarred nakedness, and the sombre silence of all
four of them. He sought, charitable in his happiness, to include them in the
thing that had happened. His mind was crowded with memories; memories of the
knowledge that had come to them when they closed in on the struggling pig,
knowledge that they had outwitted a living thing, imposed their will upon
it, taken away its life like a long satisfying drink.
He spread his arms wide.
"You should have seen the blood!"
The hunters were more silent now, but at this they buzzed again. Ralph
flung back his hair. One arm pointed at the empty horizon. His voice was
loud and savage, and struck them into silence.
"There was a ship."
Jack, faced at once with too many awful implications, ducked away from
them. He laid a hand on the pig and drew his knife. Ralph brought his arm
down, fist clenched, and his voice shook.
"There was a ship. Out there. You said you'd keep the fire going and
you let it out!" He took a step toward Jack, who turned and faced him.
"They might have seen us. We might have gone home-"
This was too bitter for Piggy, who forgot his timidity in the agony of
his loss. He began to cry out, shrilly:
"You and your blood, Jack Merridew! You and your hunting! We might have
gone home-"
Ralph pushed Piggy to one side.
"I was chief, and you were going to do what I said. You talk. But you
can't even build huts-then you go off hunting and let out the fire-"
He turned away, silent for a moment. Then his voice came again on a
peak of feeling.
"There was a ship-"
One of the smaller hunters began to wail. The dismal truth was
filtering through to everybody. Jack went very red as he hacked and pulled
at the pig.
"The job was too much. We needed everyone."
Ralph turned.
"You could have had everyone when the shelters were finished. But you
had to hunt-"
"We needed meat."
Jack stood up as he said this, the bloodied knife in his hand. The two
boys faced each other. There was the brilliant world of hunting, tactics,
fierce exhilaration, skill; and there was the world of longing and baffled
common-sense. Jack transferred the knife to his left hand and smudged blood
over his forehead as he pushed down the plastered hair.
Piggy began again.
"You didn't ought to have let that fire out. You said you'd keep the
smoke going-"
This from Piggy, and the wails of agreement from some of the hunters,
drove Jack to violence. The bolting look came into his blue eyes. He took a
step, and able at last to hit someone, stuck his fist into Piggy's stomach.
Piggy sat down with a grunt. Jack stood over him. His voice was vicious with
humiliation.
"You would, would you? Fatty!"
Ralph made a step forward and Jack smacked Piggy's head. Piggy's
glasses flew off and tinkled on the rocks. Piggy cried out in terror:
"My specs!"
He went crouching and feeling over the rocks but Simon, who got there
first, found them for him. Passions beat about Simon on the mountain-top
with awful wings.
"One side's broken."
Piggy grabbed and put on the glasses. He looked malevolently at Jack.
"I got to have them specs. Now I only got one eye. Jus` you wait-"
Jack made a move toward Piggy who scrambled away till a great rock lay
between them. He thrust his head over the top and glared at Jack through his
one flashing glass.
"Now I only got one eye. Just you wait-"
Jack mimicked the whine and scramble.
"Jus' you wait-yah!"
Piggy and the parody were so funny that the hunters began to laugh.
Jack felt encouraged. He went on scrambling and the laughter rose to a gale
of hysteria. Unwillingly Ralph felt his lips twitch; he was angry with
himself for giving way.
He muttered.
"That was a dirty trick."
Jack broke out of his gyration and stood facing Ralph. His words came
in a shout.
"All right, all right!"
He looked at Piggy, at the hunters, at Ralph.
"I'm sorry. About the fire, I mean. There. I-"
He drew himself up.
"-I apologize."