chtoby nachat' etu sluzhbu slovami: Blagosloven Bog nash...
Poroj  eto predel'noe ispytanie dlya nashej very.  "Gospod' dal, Gospod' vzyal,
da budet imya Gospodne blagoslovenno", - skazal Iov. No eto  nelegko skazat',
kogda my  razdiraemsya serdcem, vidya,  chto  tot,  kogo my lyubim bol'she vsego,
lezhit mertvym pered nashim vzorom.
     A zatem  sleduyut molitvy,  polnye very i chuvstva  real'nosti, i molitvy
chelovecheskoj hrupkosti; molitvy very soprovozhdayut dushu usopshego i prinosyatsya
pered  licom  Bozhiim  kak  svidetel'stvo lyubvi.  Potomu chto vse  molitvy  ob
usopshem yavlyayutsya imenno  svidetel'stvom pered Bogom o  tom, chto etot chelovek
prozhil ne naprasno. Kak  by  ni byl  etot chelovek  greshen,  slab, on ostavil
pamyat',  polnuyu lyubvi: vse  ostal'noe  istleet, a lyubov' perezhivet vse. Vera
projdet,  i  nadezhda  projdet,  kogda  vera  stanet  videniem  i  nadezhda  -
obladaniem, no lyubov' nikogda ne projdet.
     Poetomu kogda my stoim i molimsya  ob usopshem, my na samom dele govorim:
"Gospodi,  etot  chelovek prozhil ne  naprasno.  On ostavil  po  sebe primer i
lyubov'  na  zemle; primeru my  budem sledovat';  lyubov'  nikogda ne  umret".
Provozglashaya pered Bogom nashu neumirayushchuyu  lyubov' k  usopshemu, my utverzhdaem
etogo cheloveka ne tol'ko vo vremeni,  no i v vechnosti. Nasha zhizn' mozhet byt'
ego iskupleniem i ego slavoj. My mozhem zhit', voploshchaya svoej  zhizn'yu  vse to,
chto bylo v nem znachitel'nogo, vysokogo, podlinnogo, tak, chto kogda-to, kogda
pridet  i  nam vremya so  vsem  chelovechestvom stat'  pered Bogom,  my  smozhem
prinesti Gospodu vse plody,  vsyu zhatvu  semyan,  poseyannyh ego primerom,  ego
zhizn'yu, kotorye prorosli i  prinesli plod blagodarya nashej neumirayushchej lyubvi,
i skazat'  Gospodu: "Primi eto  ot menya; ono prinadlezhit emu, ej: ya - tol'ko
pole; seyatel' byl on! Ego primer, ego slovo, ego lichnost' byli  slovno semya,
broshennoe v pochvu, i etot plod prinadlezhit emu".
     I my mozhem stoyat' s razbitym serdcem i tem ne menee provozglashat' slova
very: Blagosloven Bog nash... Poroj eshche tragichnee zvuchit tropar' Voskreseniya:
Hristos voskrese iz  mertvyh, smertiyu smert' poprav, i sushchim vo grobeh zhivot
darovav,  - kogda pered  nashimi vzorami mertvoe telo  cheloveka,  kotorogo my
lyubili. No  golos Cerkvi proiznosit slova podderzhki i utesheniya: Blazhen put',
v  onŽ-zhe ideshi dnes',  dushe, yako  ugotovasya  tebe mesto upokoeniya, i:  ZHiva
budet dusha moya i voshvalit Tya, Gospodi.
     I  s  drugoj  storony,  est'  vsya bol',  vse  gore,  kotoroe my oshchushchaem
sovershenno spravedlivo,  skorb', kotoraya ot lica umirayushchego vyrazhena v odnom
iz troparej kanona na ishod dushi: Plachite, vozdohnite, setujte: se bo ot vas
nyne razluchayusya.
     I vmeste  s tem est' nesomnennaya  uverennost',  chto smert', kotoraya dlya
nas -  poterya  i razluka, est' rozhdenie  v vechnost', chto  ona -nachalo,  a ne
konec;  chto  smert' - velichestvennaya, svyashchennaya vstrecha mezhdu  Bogom i zhivoj
dushoj, obretayushchej polnotu tol'ko v Boge.



     Soderzhanie
     Ot
izdatelej............................................................ 3
     Pastyr' u posteli bol'nogo .................................. 5
     Smert'.....................................................................
56
     Pamyat' smertnaya ............................................... 56
     Cennost' vremeni ............................................. 60
     Lichnye vospominaniya: smert' materi............ 62
     Slishkom pozdno?.............................................. 65
     Smert' - otdelennost' ot Boga........................ 67
     Dvojstvennoe otnoshenie ................................. 70
     Eshche lichnye vospominaniya............................... 72
     Smert' otca....................................................... 75
     Soprisutstvie s umirayushchim........................... 76
     Starenie   ............................................................
79
     ZHizn' vechnaya..................................................... 81
     Vospriyatie smerti v detstve............................ 85
     Nasil'stvennaya smert'..................................... 88
     Poterya blizkih ................................................. 90
     Sobstvennaya osirotelost'............................... 91
     ZHizn' usopshego kak primer............................ 93
     Svidetel'stvo nashej zhizni ............................ 96
     Put' primireniya .............................................. 97
     Dusha i telo ..................................................... 100
     Tlenie   ..............................................................
101
     Celostnyj chelovek ......................................... 103
     Pobeda Voskreseniya........................................ 107
     Otpevanie ........................................................ 108



     Mitropolit Surozhskij Antonij
     ZHIZNX. BOLEZNX. SMERTX
     Original-maket izgotovlen izdatel'stvom
     fonda "Hristianskaya zhizn'".  Adres fonda: g. Klin M.  O., ul. Litejnaya,
21.
     LR No 030762 ot 13 avgusta 1997 g.
     Podpisano k pechati 17.09.2000
     Format 70x100/32. Pech. l. 3,5
     Tirazh 2000. Zakaz 482
     Otpechatano v tipografii
     Patriarshego izdatel'sko-poligraficheskogo centra g. Sergiev Posad