du samymi uvazhaemymi vozhdyami blagorodnyh plemen, i prigotovit' iz ego chastej izyskannye blyuda na svyashchennom kostre. A na samom dele, ona udostoilas' Nobelevskoj premii za vklad v razvitie kosmetologicheskoj hirurgii. Dazhe Agnessa togda pozavidovala ej. Kak luchshej lyubovnice sredi nezamuzhnih zhenshchin ej vruchili unikal'nyj nabor priborov i aksessuarov dlya vedeniya lyubovnyh igr, izgotovlennyh eshche vo vremena Lyudovikov XIV i XV. No kogda ya uedinyalsya s nej v ee tesnoj komnate, no s shirokim oknom, ona prevrashchalas' v devushku, bespechno zapletayushchuyu sebe kosichki i rassmatrivayushchuyu zhurnaly so spletnyami i krasochnymi fotografiyami znamenitostej. I ya zataskival ee v vannu, kogda zakanchivalsya chaj, ya pil ego bystro i bezostanovochno, i my pridumyvali stroki po ocheredi. Smeyalis' nad svoimi proizvedeniyami, pleskalis' vodoj, inogda obnimalis', no poyavlyalas' Keli, i mne ne hotelos' etogo. YA perezhival, dumaya, chto vsegda budut takie nesovmestimosti. A segodnya ya prosto shel k nej domoj. Lyudyam nuzhny lyudi. Kakoj absurd. Vse -- lish' tebe. Znat' by tvoe imya. Ili ostavit' tvoj psevdonim netronutym i, edva prikosnuvshis' gubami k glazam, unesti nakonec-to na gubah odin iz tvoih samyh zapominayushchihsya vzglyadov. U nas vse shoditsya. U nas budet odinakovoe kolichestvo detej, i pol sovpadaet, no pochemu my ne mozhem rasstat'sya so svoimi odinochestvami, ili my ne lyubim situaciyu, no lyubim sebya, a krome nas nekomu bol'she reshit', chto ostaetsya vmesto nas na planete, esli my ne vmeste. Ty menya trogaesh', to est' to, chto ty delaesh' so mnoj, trogaet menya. Ty pol'zuesh'sya tem, chto ya trogatelen, a ty trogayushchaya, i trogaemaya, no ne mnoj, a tronut' tvoe serdce ya mogu lish' bezvol'no otdavayas' tvoej charuyushchej rifme, davno ne ispol'zuemoj v poezii, no voskreshennoj toboj iskusno i nepodrazhaemo. Vlyublyus' lish' v ekstravagantnyh zhenshchin v zakrytyh klubah, podymu sebya na vtoroj etazh, otkroyu dver', a ona neozhidanno priedet na lifte, sledivshaya za mnoj, vlyublyus', i, vlyublyayas', nazovu ee Klimentinoj, ona obiditsya, no po-dobromu, popravit menya, okazavshis' |melianoj, i ya pushchu ee v svoe zhilishche, na hodu razdevaya, celuya ushi, podstavlyaya sheyu ee gubam, oshchushchaya ih zhar i gotovoe k stonam dyhanie. Perestav dyshat', rasputyvayu ee legkie bryuki, prikleivayus' k ee telu, raskleivayus' i peremeshivayus' s nej. anee ee bylo slozhno ne zametit', no ya vozvrashchalsya s zakrytymi glazami, naslazhdayas' lish' zapahom, kotoryj menya presledoval, i ona presledovala menya, kak Keli v odin iz vecherov, possorivshis' s Dzhordzhem, kak Syuzan odnazhdy sluchajno sledovala za mnoj, dumaya, chto ya ee budushchij sokursnik v universitete, i ispuskaya v itoge vostorzhennye kriki na nochnom beregu rechki vozle studencheskogo obshchezhitiya v moih ob®yatiyah. Mnogim ya obyazan Klimentine, no ya ne znal, chto P'er imel kakoe-to otnoshenie k ee otcovstvu, ya dumal, chto on uvidel ee v shkole, provodya tam seminary, buduchi uzhe zrelym ordinatorom, gotovyashchimsya pristupit' k praktike v klinike i rabotat' vmeste s Pablo ili vmesto Pablo. YA dumal, chto imenno togda na kakoj-to iz golovokruzhitel'nyh lekcij on polyubil ee, no Klimentina ne mogla ne znat' svoih roditelej, ili ee babushka vsegda govorila ej, chto pridet odnazhdy vremya, ej ispolnitsya shestnadcat' let i ona uznaet, kto okazalsya vinovnikom ee poyavleniya na svet, mozhet imenno poetomu ona i dozhila do shestnadcati i ne iskromsala svoi veny v zhelanii hot' raz v zhizni sdelat' chto-libo znachitel'noe, pust' dlya samoj sebya, i ona ne zahotela protivorechit' svoej staren'koj babushke, a lish' pochuvstvovala zhalost' k nej, i k ee uchasti. No yavnyh dokazatel'stv u moih predpolozhenij ne bylo, i poznakomilsya ya s P'erom i Klimentinoj lish' potomu, chto sam odnazhdy vlyubilsya v nee, devochku, spisyvayushchuyu kontrol'nuyu u svoego soseda, nablyudaya za nej i ee dvizheniyami, prisutstvuya na uroke biologii v kachestve assistenta prepodavatelya, togda dlya menya bylo sdelano isklyuchenie, i reshili ispol'zovat' menya kak primer dlya opisaniya vsevozmozhnyh nedugov. YA mog yarko izobrazhat' epileptikov i kleptomanov. Ona na neskol'ko sekund zaderzhala vzglyad na moih gubah, ya tochno ugadyval, kuda smotreli glaza lyudej, i eshche ya zametil, chto vsmatrivayas' v moi guby, ona vspomnila o tom, chto ee grud' medlenno rastet, no vlyublennye v nee mal'chiki zhazhdali prikosnut'sya k nej. Ona k tomu zhe vspomnila v tot samyj moment, chto ee babushka odnazhdy progovorilas' o tom, chto poyavitsya chelovek, kotoryj v odin zamechatel'nyj i nezabyvaemyj den' smozhet vmeste s nej (Klimentinoj) uvidet' bessyuzhetnyj son s vystraivayushchimisya v glaznyh yablokah ciframi telefonnogo nomera, pozvoniv po kotoromu on smozhet uslyshat' svoj golos. Padaya na pol v svoej detskoj komnate, Klimentina uslyshala telefonnye zvonki i reshila skoree podnyat' trubku, no bol' posle padeniya byla nesterpimoj, ej prishlos' prikladyvat' led k raznym uchastkam tela. |to navernyaka zvonil Dzhordzh, possorivshijsya s Keli. Odnako ej ponadobilsya ya, togda eshche sovsem neopytnyj i nichego ne znayushchij ob otnosheniyah mezhdu zhenshchinoj i muzhchinoj, mne eshche ne hotelos' teryat' devstvennost' i nachinat' vzrosluyu zhizn', tem bolee mnoj vse chashche interesovalis' rabotniki kliniki na allee Pontifikata. S drugoj storony mne nadoelo borot'sya s erekciej i vsemi vozmozhnymi sposobami sderzhivat' ee. V Klimentine bylo vse, chto zastavlyalo nalivat'sya krov'yu moj penis. YA uzhasalsya tomu, chto mogu osmelit'sya zanimat'sya seksom, utrachivaya chistotu pomyslov, no byli eshche i mysli o chistote chuvstva. Kazhdoe utro ya prinosil by ee v nash nezavisimyj priyut s odnoj shatayushchejsya krovat'yu, posle nochnyh progulok po pustynnym ulicam. Ona by ne mogla obojtis' bez moih ruk, nesushchih ee k razdetym nervam, k ekstazu, krichashchim kraskam glaz, i marazmaticheskim vspleskam gub i vspyshkam volos. My by ni na sekundu ne zabyvali drug o druge. And no obsessions could chase us. Po doroge domoj, izuchaya ladoshku Kim, i proiznosya inogda banal'no standartnye frazy, ya vospityval svoi zhelaniya, razoblachaya svoi zavisimosti. Pridya domoj, Kim, kak vsegda zahotela vypit' chaj, poslushat' staruyu muzyku, kotoruyu ona postoyanno poryvaetsya zaimstvovat' u menya, no v moment proshchaniya pomnit lish' o tom, naskol'ko bespokojnym byl zakanchivayushchijsya den'. Odnazhdy, ochen' davno ona dumala, chto ya -- bezobidnyj mal'chik. No, uzhe zavarivaya chaj, ona vyglyadela udivitel'no spokojnoj. Universes on the floor of television shows start beginning securing our love flow. Despite confusions and embarrassment while kissing for the first time I regulated my daggering into Kim's complexes and my own acnephobia. We simply could not say simple words and play common games. Each and every our chance to get enfolded by each other made us believe it was more than love and we used to lose the feeling of being together once and again just looking for something unattainable in borderless space of our dreams. Vse ravno my byli tainstvami. Pogruzhalis' v Slowdive i nikomu ne pozvolyali proniknut' hot' na mig v nashe edinstvo i malejshim obrazom potrevozhit' nas. Kim vse znala, odnazhdy okazavshis' na meste devushki, vospityvaemoj strazhem poryadka v metro, k tomu zhe pobyvav na meste Marii, paralizovannoj ot nevedomoj samootverzhennosti i zhertvennosti. A v budushchem stanovilas' toj Kim, kotoraya predpolagala obretenie strannogo talanta poluchat' udovol'stvie ot frigidnosti. My dogovorilis' o tom, chto ona pokidaet menya nochami polnoj luny. Prihodit rovno v polden' solncestoyaniya. Ne mogu zabyt' nashi obeshchaniya, v kotoryh nikto ne raskaivalsya, neispolneniyu kotoryh radovalsya v tajne, i obeshchal snova. Kazhdyj, kazhdyj den'. V simfonii, napisannoj Pablo, ya ne rasslyshal, kakie zvuki zamenyali emu dyhanie Marii. On otoshel ot prepodavaniya i vrachebnoj deyatel'nosti. I ushel ot Marii, kotoraya nikogda ne chuvstvovala gorodskogo bezuchastiya. Ona ochen' tiho chitala knigu, kotoruyu ya kupil nakanune. YA povesil ee sebe na sheyu, osoznavaya naskol'ko nepriyatnyj zapah mozhet ishodit' ot nee, esli ee lono budet provodit' slishkom mnogo vremeni na moej shee. No potom mne stalo priyatno oshchushchat' eti pohotlivye vozbuzhdayushchie zapahi, i mne hotelos' snyat' ee so svoej shei i prizhat' k svoemu telu s cel'yu vzyat' ee v kakoj-to blagopriyatnyj moment, i dvigat'sya s nej v ee zapahah, i, vozmozhno, oni stanut moimi. Legko provedya ladon'yu po ee lbu, ya opredelil temperaturu, pri kotoroj plavitsya led. Tak vozbuzhdena ona byla posle pogruzheniya v moi fantazii. Davaj pojdem dal'she, tuda, gde my ne byli i kuda ni pod kakim predlogom ne mogli popast'. Legche li nam budet ot togo, chto o nas napishut mnozhestvo statej i snimut ujmu zanimatel'nyh peredach? Nam lish' neobhodima eta stupen', vsegda nedostupnaya. Dalekaya. Znakomstvo s kotoroj uzhe ne pozvolyaet s nee sojti. Mariya byla malen'koj princessoj do stolknoveniya s gorodom. V svoem morskom dome s verandoj, na kotoroj ona sochinyala dlya Pablo pesni, i pela emu tihim golosom. A Pablo hotel, chtoby ona rodila emu doch'. I bilsya bezrezul'tatno s ee besplodnost'yu. Napisav samye cennye raboty, izdannye na vseh kontinentah, prinesshie pol'zu mnogim iznachal'no bezdetnym param, kotorye v itoge obzavodilis' malyshami, i pisali pis'ma blagodarnosti Pablo. Pokidaya peski, propitannye sol'yu, vdyhaya briz, proshchayas', Mariya stavila kresty detyam, umershim v ee utrobe, urodam, kotoryh ona mogla rodit', vspominaya rasskazy svoih predkov o fakel'nyh ustanovkah, umershchvlyayushchih vse zhivoe. Mariya rasstelila naposledok prostyn' na pustynnom plyazhe, okunulas' v vody morya, smyv s sebya tropicheskie teni i otpustiv sny v svobodnoe plavanie, vydyhaya vozduh pod vodoj, pozvoliv akulam kusat' ee nezhnee i lyubovnee, chem kogda by to ni bylo. Ostaviv slezy v ih pastyah. Podnimayas' telom k svetu. Predugadyvaya besstrastie zakonov FB i paradoksal'nost' feminizma. Vedoma golosami. Zabyvaya yazyk ptic, molyashchih ee ostat'sya, im tozhe sooruzhaya kresty, vydergivaya poocheredno po peryshku iz lyuboj vzyvayushchej k ee blagorazumiyu ptashki, kremiruya i razveivaya ih prah nad lyubimymi prostorami. I uzhe pronizyvayas' translyaciyami novostej o birzhevyh kotirovkah, za kotorymi postoyanno sledili P'er i Gruniel', nahodya svoe lico na ekranah videotelefonnyh peregovorov, poziruya v obnazhennom vide v dorogih studiyah i otdavayas' samym udachlivym i simpatichnym fotografam, Mariya zadumalas' nad neobhodimost'yu stat' v ochered' na poluchenie posobiya po bezrabotice. Ochered' tyanulas' po vsem prospektam, okajmlyayushchim territoriyu ministerstva i vyhodila na avtostradu. Mariya pritvorilas' vlyublennoj i otchayavshejsya devushkoj, zhelayushchej soedinit'sya s vozlyublennym, nadeyas' na to, chto mozhet byt' emu poleznoj, imeya dopolnitel'nyj istochnik postupleniya denezhnyh sredstv, kotorye oni mogli by vmeste tratit' na pohody v del'finarij i cirk-shapito. Poetomu ona vsasyvala vzglyadom lyubov' okon ograzhdavshih ee domov. Krichat' "magnificent" ej ne pozvolyalo vospitanie. U nee golos byl slishkom odinokim, glubokim, i slova progovarivala ona s pridyhaniem, pytayas' vypustit' chast' chuvstv kapillyarnym putem, zadyhayas' periodicheski. Iz okon lilis' zvuki neudovletvoreniya i ustalosti. -- Ne mogu. Ostanovis'. I chto-to bylo skazano gruboe v otvet. -- YA nashla tebya. Zapominayu tvoi polye glaza v moment tvoego vzryvayushchego menya molekulyarnogo otdohnoveniya. Nikogda Mariya ne slyshala takih otkrovennyh fraz. No ona ne predpolagala, chto vse ostal'nye ryadom stoyashchie bezrabotnye ne mogli nichego izvlech' iz obstupayushchih ih okon. Mariya eshche imela sluh, ulavlivavshij kazhdyj shoroh muravejnika ee dalekoj strany, i ej kazalos', chto zdes' ona vskore oglohnet, ili perestanet reagirovat' na vsplesk kryla chajki, kotoruyu ona kormila po vecheram, vyhodya v more na legkom sudne Pablo s paluboj dlya dvoih. Neozhidanno na ploshchadi poyavilis' Kim i Keli, a Frenk igral na gitare, a devushki tancevali, pronzitel'nymi prokurennymi golosami zastavlyaya glohnut' Mariyu, i Mariya ne soprotivlyalas', podprygivaya na meste. -- YA lyublyu, kogda eto pahnut lyudi, kogda ot nih ne dozhdesh'sya dobrogo slova, ili ih net ryadom, no kogda tak pahnut lyudi, kazhetsya, chto potracheno mnogo vremeni i usilij popustu, esli hochesh' uznat' zapah kazhdogo i poznat' kvintessenciyu chelovecheskogo zapaha v celom, a lyudi pahnut tak, kak togda, kogda Mariya teryala eshche i svoe obonyanie, pahlo ee lono. Okunut'sya by v vodu. Ee zaglushili gitarnye akkordy, a kto proiznosil eti slova, nikto ne uznal. Priblizhalas' ee ochered'. Ee sprosili: -- Milochka, vy rabotali kogda-nibud'? -- Vsyu svoyu zhizn'. YA zhila s Pablo, i mne prihodilos' soderzhat' nash dom na beregu morya. Kogda on pisal lekcii, ili gotovilsya k zashchite doktorskoj, ya gotovila emu chaj, a inogda rabotala vmesto nego, tak kak ya mogla pronikat' v ego mysli, obrabatyvat' v svoem mozgu i vosproizvodit' na razlichnyh nositelyah informacii. YA stirala ego veshchi v morskoj vode, i ot nego vsegda pahlo morem, i studentam bylo priyatnej slushat' ego lekcii. A kogda on hotel usnut' dnem i emu ne hvatalo tenej, ya stanovilas' naprotiv solnca, zakryvaya ego svoim telom, poetomu u menya takaya smuglaya zagorelaya kozha. CHinovnik ustal ot ee istorii, i vypisal ej posobie po bezrabotice. |ta summa pozvolila Marii sojti s uma i idti v diskoklub, ni o chem ne zadumyvayas', i ne volnuyas' o chrezmernosti budushchih rastrat. Ona byla schastliva. Ona zhazhdala znakomstv. Sperva ona posetit klub "Laguna", nazvanie kotorogo ee zaintrigovalo i vselilo nadezhdu na obretenie kusochkov svoego prezhnego miroporyadka. Sterva na vhode budet usmehat'sya nad Mariej, uvidev ee neobyknovennye glaza, v kotoryh okeany smeshivayutsya; oni vyl'yutsya iz Marii, i sterva na vhode usmehnetsya, chtoby ne obezumet' ot neponimaniya, -- pribegnet k isprobovannomu sposobu podavlyat' svoe udivlenie. Mariyu ne hoteli puskat' v klub, no vdrug k nej podoshel stareyushchij muzhchina, predstavilsya |zhenom, i poprosil Mariyu uchit' ego rumynskomu yazyku. Mariya vzyalas' za eto s velikim entuziazmom. Oni proshli v "Lagunu". Tam shumno. Potreskavshiesya poly, zabryzgannye morskoj sol'yu. "Nam neobhodimo otbirat' morfij u vseh nesovershennoletnih vnutri etogo zdaniya", -- prosheptal |zhen na ushko Marii. "Govori im nezhnye slova, i nezametno osvobozhdaj ih ruki, karmany, sumochki." I received your portrait from space. No one seemed to be unknown to me by that time. Really evoking eyes to remind me your face I got drowned in ocean rebellion. U |zhena ne bylo zheny. On posmatrival na Mariyu s zainteresovannost'yu, s vozhdeleniem otyskival ee zapahi v tolpe na tancpole, pytalsya ne govorit', vyigryvaya vremya. A Mariya rukami, otbirayushchimi morfij u posetitelej, periodicheski molila |zhena poigrat' s nej, sygrat' lyubuyu igru, vplot' do raschleneniya ee mozga. "Sunny girl" was the utmost primary Eugene's thought. Maria started decoding his brightless and distorted breath. She thought at once she wasted few lives being Pablo's servant. |zhen zhe vystraival dveri vo vladeniyah svoego vysokogo razuma, i pryatalsya za nimi, nadeval ochki s zheltymi steklami, i nervno vtyagival tabak nosom, pyhtya i vysmarkivayas' pri kazhdom udobnom sluchae. Mariya ne mogla sderzhivat' svoi poryvy: "Ty zachem vzorval planetu, tebe bylo malo menya, pokinutoj i pokinuvshej vse, chto moglo menya navechno pogruzit' v velikuyu pustotu. CHto opyat' proishodit, kogda nam hochetsya rozhat' detej, i ne hochetsya pererozhdat'sya pri vozniknovenii lish' nameka na bezumstvo, tayashchegosya v sluchajno vyletevshej fraze, iz tesnogo bezvremen'ya vykarabkavshejsya, i umershej ot nevynosimosti oshchushcheniya svoej ispol'zovannosti......... |zhen, uvedi menya otsyuda, mne negde zhit', mne nekogo lyubit', mne ne o kom dumat'. YA mogla by lyubit' tebya, tajno....." AAAAAAAAAAAAAA! YA ne prednaznachena. YA videla detej, obrugavshihsya i upavshih v luzhu svoej blevotiny. U nih ne hvatilo galantnosti, chtoby ne pit' vodku i nabrasyvat'sya na Keli, sluchajno okazavshejsya v ih strane s koncertom. Ee inostrannye glaza bezumno vozbudili detej, i oni, malen'kie, no zhazhdushchie, brosilis' na Keli, kogda ee soprovoditeli otvleklis' na priblizhayushchiesya tolpy poklonnikov, i zatashchili oni ee v svoi podvorotni. |zhen, ne ty menya zhdal togda s bespolym chelovekom v parke Arto. |to byli ne moi ruki, tebe Pablo vse podtverdit. YA byla ego suprugoj, vernoj i zabotyashchejsya. Glotala ego polnost'yu i bez ostatka, ne zhelaya naslazhdat'sya lish' ego chastyami. On sam lyubil, kak eto proishodilo. YA uhozhu. Mary, stay with me. Did I say it? I am too old to masturbate alone. (Vzryvy civilizacii, |zhen uzhe vzorval zemnoj shar, kto-to uzhe vzorval vselennuyu, personazhi derutsya, ubivayut drug druga. Polnoe pomeshatel'stvo.) Kazhdyj iz mudrecov pytalsya zabolet' lejkemiej, chto pozvolyalo putem sokrashcheniya zhiznennogo sroka prebyvaniya na Zemle povysit' vospriimchivost' ko vsemu dosele nepoznannomu. U mnogih, dostigavshih sostoyaniya bezgranichnogo poznaniya chelovecheskogo racio i bezmernoj vovlechennosti v bezdnu razoblachenij istiny, voznikali dopolnitel'nye glaza i guby, rosli novye grudi, i chleny tel uvelichivalis' i razvetvlyalis'. Kazhdyj kak budto prevrashchalsya v otdel'noe derevo, a vse vmeste napominali sady s chelovecheskimi priznakami. YA delayu utrennyuyu zaryadku, protivorechu svoim principam, i perestayu masturbirovat', hotya u menya poyavilis' novye zhurnaly s fotografiyami ochen' soblaznitel'nyh devushek. Nadoeli klipy seksapil'nyh devic. Neobhodimo sdelat' zaryadku. U Marii nachinaetsya pristup vospominanij. YA smotryu na okruglivshiesya glaza ee, voproshayushchie: gde ty, Pablo? YA protestuyu i prodolzhayu zaryadku, ya star, ya |zhen, a ne Pablo, ya vzorvu etot mir. Nuzhno uhvatit'sya za dvizhimye materii. I professura universiteta polnost'yu pogruzilas' v izuchenie sperva struktury materij, a zatem i prirody ih vzaimodejstvij. Pablo byl na polgolovy vyshe vseh ostal'nyh, kto uhazhival za Mariej. Emu ochen' chasto snilis' guby ee uhazherov, celuyushchih ee zapyast'ya i predlagayushchih ej rasstat'sya s zhelaniem uvidet' gorod, v kotorom oni rabotayut. Im byl znakom Pablo kak otlichnyj specialist, razrabatyvayushchij novyj preparat iz placentarnyh chastic dlya izlecheniya makrokosmicheskih boleznej. Mariya darila emu lepeshki s syrom, ugovarivaya prodolzhat' rabotu nad novymi izobreteniyami, ej neobhodim byl pokoj i uyut, ee boleznyam ne bylo chisla, i ona obychno sidela na beregu svoego lyubimogo morya i smotrela v storonu parohodov, othodyashchih iz gorodskogo porta, uvozyashchih ee mechtu ob iscelenii. Pablo prisazhivalsya ryadom i neozhidanno dlya nee govoril odno i tozhe slovo den' oto dnya. Ono vsegda bylo novym dlya nee, a on ustal ot etoj uporyadochennosti svoej rechi. Mariya zhe govorila o krokodilah, nahodyas' v samyh ozhivlennyh lagunah, prekrasno osoznavaya, chto ee nikto ne slushaet, no slyshat vse, kto prisutstvuet ryadom. Bolezni Marii ne upominalis' v medicinskih spravochnikah sovremennosti, lish' v nekotoryh manuskriptah drevnih celitelej est' prostrannye opisaniya podobnyh nedugov. Pablo podaril Marii stul'ya, na kotoryh oni zanimalis' kogda-to lyubov'yu. Ona byla rastrogana i sozhgla ih v pamyat' o teh bezuderzhnyh soitiyah na kuhne ee roditelej. Pablo rabotal userdno i, vidimo, zabyval, kakie prelesti v sebe tayat bezzabotnost' i lenost' Marii. Ona nichego ne pokupala v magazine naprotiv, potomu chto ne znala, chto takoe den'gi. Volny morya mochili plat'e ee, a veter morya nosilsya nad ee svetyashchimisya volosami. Pablo byl paralizovan s detstva. Kogda on otpravlyalsya v universitet, on vspominal ob etom lish' v tom sluchae, esli ego namechavshayasya lekciya byla posvyashchena vsecelo povedeniyu paralizovannyh s detstva lyudej. On ne delal zaryadku po utram. Ona delala emu minet. I'd love to have energetic sex with a seductive shepherdess.V V |zhen spal, polozhiv golovu Marii na plecho, posapyvaya, specificheski postanyvaya. Mariya smotrela v okno na gorod, ej kazalos', chto kakoj-to ee neostorozhnyj vzglyad nenavisti na doma i trassy mozhet rasstroit' |zhena, on pokoryal gorod, proklyal ego, on razrushal ego, no lyubil, kak nikto drugoj, letuchej mysh'yu vpivayas' v ego arterii. Opustis' na zemlyu, Mariya, tebya ishchut, ishchut zabludivshiesya deti. Luchi pronikayut v tolshchu zemnoj kory skvoz' otrazhayushchiesya v vode zvezdy. Tol'ko dlya nee, dlya Marii on, |zhen, mog razukrasit' gorod kraskami nezhnosti, sonnoj negi, cvetushchego lona samogo devstvennogo cvetka samogo chistogo cveta. -- YA na gitare sygrayu.. -- Ne nado. -- YA zabudu, kakoe polusharie mozga otvechaet za moi bezumnye postupki. -- YA stanu tvoim polushariem, mirom tvoim, sploshnoj setkoj meridianov, opoyasyvayushchej tebya. |to obshchenie ni k chemu ne privelo. Dzhordzh pokinul |melianu, nazval ee na proshchanie Klimentinoj, i otpravilsya na poiski poslednih zhivyh dobryh detej na planete, chtoby umertvit' ih do togo, kak oni nenarokom ne prevratilis' v vzroslyh. Takie eshche prozhivali v priyutah na rodine Marii i Pablo. Ih naveshchal Apulej , im darila svoi zhurnaly Klimentina. YA men'she slezy kazhdogo iz nih. Priglashaya Mariyu k sebe domoj, ya pytalsya najti v nej nekuyu neprichastnost' ko vsemu proishodyashchemu v degradiruyushchem razlagayushchemsya gorodskom bytii. Ona kazalas' mne zakreposhchennoj kakoe-to vremya, otvechala nevnyatno, ne mogla najti nuzhnye slova i teryalas' v samyh chto ni na est' prostyh ponyatiyah zhiznennogo miroustrojstva, harakterizuya svoi prezhnyuyu i nyneshnyuyu zhizni. YA ne mog ne lyubit' ee golos, ee intonacii, ee voproshayushchie vzglyady. asstegivaya svoi bryuki, ya zametil, chto ona otvernulas' ot menya, ya nadel ryadom s nej valyavshiesya dzhinsy i slegka kosnulsya svoej rukoj ee lica, ona vstrepenulas', pokrasnela, vse bylo neozhidannym dlya nee, no ona ne mogla ne prijti ko mne i pogruzit'sya v moyu istoriyu, ee ochen' sil'no zainteresovali transformacii moego mozga. Ona znala, chto takie operacii imeyut neodnoznachnye i neozhidannye posledstviya, nepredskazuemye i preobrazhayushchie cheloveka. V ee vozraste mozhno legko oshibit'sya. No ne bylo nikogo chishche Marii, predannee ee. YA ostavlyal ee u sebya doma chashche, i mne ne hotelos', chtoby ona volnovalas' i bespokoilas' o svoem polozhenii v tragicheski bezdarnoj strukture moej nacii. Dzhordzh uzhe ne poddavalsya P'eru, pitalsya ego kompleksami, Gruniel' priznalsya v tom, chto odnazhdy on iznasiloval Agnessu, a na sleduyushchij den' pytalsya darit' ej kol'co. Agnessa nazvala ego ischadiem ada i skonchalas' togda, provodya operaciyu. Mnogoe stanovilos' dostupnym. Informaciya rasprostranyalas' stremitel'no. Mariya ne mogla byt' moej lyubovnicej. I lyubil ee ya neistovo i bezotchetno. V golovu svoyu vstavlyaya ee ruki, kupayas' v kozhe ee yagodic, pokryvaya resnicami svoimi ee pupok. Restrictive state policy overwhelmed our love story. It was always hard to find any explanation for authorities' actions. At tea o'clock at my place just seeing each other hugging each other tightly with devotion and talking of space worlds forgetting scorned races outside we meet. Eating chocolate listening to MBV. Stopping thinking of cruel militiamen. Stop inanity. Just for a second giving a chance to yourself to feel the most comprehensive growth of love inside spreading and bursting out. V dorogom kostyume, postoyanno zhazhdushchij uvidet' glaza, glaza, glaza, glaza, glaza v glazah, GLAZA, trying to recognise eyes, teplymi rukami szhimaya holodnuyu butylku piva, edinyashchuyu s proshlym, poyushchij nikomu ne izvestnye zdes' pesni, vtorgayus' v ih bezzhiznennost'. Krichu na nih s mostov i v podzemnyh perehodah, zovu |zhena, umolyayu ego vzorvat' gorod, a on uzhe vzorval mir dlya Marii. Ne nahodya slov dlya okruzhayushchih menya zlyh detej, detishek, ya pytalsya bezhat' ot nih, pritvoryayas', budto ya igrayu s nimi v kakuyu-to podvizhnuyu igru, namerevayas' ne zarodit' v nih podozrenie togo, chto ya ih boyus', nesomnenno vyzvav by tem samym u nih gnusnoe zhelanie prichinit' mne bol', izdevat'sya nado mnoj i moej bespomoshchnost'yu. Kazhdyj rebenok zheval zhvachki i igral v komp'yuternye igry, no oni mogli raspyat' menya na lyubom stolbe, v lyubom pod®ezde, oni chuvstvovali sebya hozyaevami. Im ne nravilos' stalkivat'sya s nepostizhimost'yu chego-libo. Oni smotreli novye serialy o vojne i prestupnosti. Oni vybirali sebe geroev, i poklonyalis' patrioticheski nastroennym starshim tovarishcham. Oni mogli ne prosto raspyat' menya, no eshche i unichtozhit' vse, chto proizvel ya na svet, szhech' moi knigi, knigi moih druzej, mogli iznasilovat' v ocherednoj raz Keli i umertvit' Kim, kotoraya postaraetsya im soprotivlyat'sya, a oni ved' deti, nikto ne smeet ih obizhat', oni by i Frenku slomali gitaru, razmozzhili by emu golovu. Ih by popytalsya ostanovit' Apulej , no oni by lish' podshuchivali nad starikom, unichtozhiv ego sutry. Zimoj nas by zastavili est' sneg. My by umirali ot vospaleniya legkih. Nas by obnazhennyh vygonyali na ulicu, brosali by v prorubi. A esli by ih lyubimaya futbol'naya komanda proigrala vazhnuyu igru, s nas by zhivyh snyali kozhu, i sshili by iz nee futbol'nye myachi, prodavali by ih v butikah dlya bogatyh roditelej. No nashi serdca bilis' by v unison. My by citirovali Lorku pered smert'yu i peli All You Need Is Love. No... No odnazhdy proizojdet tak, chto dozhd' obrushitsya na zemlyu i nepronicaemoj zavesoj vody ogradit nas ot bezumnyh mal'chikov i devochek, spryachet nas sredi svoih celitel'nyh kapel', i my vyrvemsya naruzhu samoj velikoj vspyshkoj sveta, dokazyvaya nashu neprikosnovennost'. Nam bol'she ne smogut prichinit' bol'. My pogruzhaemsya v ozhidanie dozhdya. Vse splotilis' i zaigrali muzyku, puteshestvuya v klubah, eshche dayushchih priyut borcam za vozmozhnost' smotret' v glaza, iskat' glaza, prevrashchat'sya v glaza, vytekat' iz glaz novymi glazami, stanovit'sya celuyushchimi glazami, zanimayushchimisya lyubov'yu glazami, bezdetnymi i rozhayushchimi detej s glazami. -- YA derzhu mikrofon, -- krichala Kim, -- menya ne slyshno.... -- YA syadu za pul't, -- krichal Dzhordzh, prakticheski teryayushchij soznanie ot vypitogo alkogolya. No bol'she nekomu bylo sozdat' zvuk, i Dzhordzh preobrazilsya, on vse delal vslepuyu, uspevaya vozbuzhdat' ryadom sidevshuyu Keli. |nergiya rasprostranilas' na vseh prisutstvuyushchih. P'er napilsya, Klimentina ne priehala v obeshchannyj den', i ne pozvonila. P'er bespokoilsya. assmatrival raspisaniya samoletov i poezdov, zvonil administratoram portov, v gostinicy, v kotoryh ostanavlivalas' Klimentina. Vstretiv P'era u Serzha, ya zakazal emu kofe, sebe -- vina. -- Lyubil li ya kogo-nibud' v zhizni? -- P'er znal, chto ya otvechu. YA promolchal. P'er menya ponyal. Zahotel eshche vypit'. YA ego ne ostanavlival. Emu mozhno bylo teper' doverit' trepetnoe serdce devochki. On menya pochemu-to nazyval Dzhordzhem, no ya byl chem-to bol'shim, no ne hotelos' ego rasstraivat', ukazyvaya na ego neznanie. Poslednee vremya ya byl veerom Veroniki i simvolikoj Vermahta. Uzhe cherez neskol'ko sekund ya prevrashchus' v sushchnost' rasshcheplennyh chastic i chest' neschastnyh istcov. Pervyj raz v zhizni on uvidel svoi glaza v moem bokale vina. -- KLIMENTINA!!!!!!! I found out Clementine was in Lviv. She stayed their with AEGEE delegation from Spain. In the evenings she got drunk with MihaE‚ and had been dancing with Olav. She started to grow inside as she perceived all the abnormality of her past and wasting time. Traveling to Kiev she ran off few relapse moods and drifted through exciting acquaintances. I saw her weather skin and sparkling eyes. Grasping her hands' waves I wished her face touched mine and her breath got mixed with my inspiration. Wished to cry, to reach her ears with I see you. Soon she was hidden in the dawn mists. |tap za etapom. Universal'naya chistka, vse dlya uvelicheniya plodovitosti samok, vsovyvanie im v mozg preparatov, stimuliruyushchih klitor, prevrashchenie samok v aktivnyh osobej, zhazhdushchih oplodotvoreniya. Samcam uvelichivayut razmery penisov i razlichnymi sposobami obuchayut ih taktike vedeniya lyubovnoj igry s cel'yu polucheniya maksimal'no priyatnogo orgazma i vozniknoveniya zhelaniya povtorit' prodelannoe neskol'ko raz, chego hvatilo by dlya polnocennogo oplodotvoreniya. |tim proektom rukovodil Pablo. Nekotorye samki slishkom uvlekalis' stimulyatorami, nahodili sebe neskol'kih samcov i odnovremenno snoshalis' s nimi, inogda proishodili sluchai, kotorye portili statistiku. Kto-to zahlebyvalsya spermoj, kto-to lishalsya devstvennosti slishkom pospeshno i grubymi sposobami, gubya matku. Mariya nablyudala za reklamoj. Ee glaza vospalyalis', soski tverdeli, nozdri i rot perestavali vdyhat' vozduh, bilos' li serdce ee, ostanovilas' li ee zhizn'? Ona umerla. YA pohoronil ee v mogile Aleksandra IV. No pered tem kak pogruzit' ee telo v zemlyu, ya vynul ee serdce, ono, vidimo ot neozhidannosti, vzdrognulo i aritmichno vernulos' k zhizni. YA proglotil ego. B'yushcheesya.  * CHASTX II *  Bloknot iz Akapul'ko. V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V V Poslednij mezhdunarodnyj konflikt zavershilsya. Nachalsya poisk vdohnoveniya. Dyshat' stalo legche. Neprinuzhdennost' soputstvovala progulkam na ulice, obshcheniyu v obshchestvennyh mestah. Trud povyshalsya v cene. Prekratilis' repressii. Deti nachinali igrat' drug s drugom bez voennyh igrushek, im strannymi kazalis' inogda eshche popadavshiesya v magazinah antikvariata ruzh'ya i pistolety, nikto iz nih ne ponimal slov "zastrelit', vzorvat'". Na urokah istorii deti chasto otvlekalis' i zanimalis' chem-to drugim, mnogie risovali ili chto-to zapisyvali v svoi malen'kie bloknotiki, a potom chitali drug drugu na peremenah. V odnom iz nih, poteryannom v Akapul'ko i najdennom synom Klimentiny po proshestviyu mnogih let posle rozhdeniya, bylo napisano sleduyushchee: Art was invisible, the planets got unseen. After the smashes of two universes nothing resembled pure idea of a definite dignity. They had been eating their gypsy food and drinking their gypsy wine. The girls around started to feel excited as they could dance on the tables and show to visitors their almost naked bodies, legs and asses, almost naked breasts. Some guys did cry in the hall and evoked barmen and got drunker more and more. The stories told in the nights reflected their most hidden and unknown desires where they had been taught to leave everything behind and they did. The place looked so as if it was burnt and destroyed completely by a child who wished to stay pure. There everyone who remembered the name of Clementine decided to meet in the alley of grey cactuses. Poor relative also planned to be there. Though he just had such a joke. He used to wear glasses and be acquainted with all those who pretended to be elite artists. However he had never been bisexual. He only laughed at everybody who had lovers of different sex. He had no real sex in life as he had a wrong wife or had no wife. It is amazing how lifeless they are!!!!!!! EVERYBODY EVERYONE ALL OF THEM WHERE SHOULD WE KILL THEM? WHEN? Clementine's son got astonished reading all that. He started stuttering. Clementine got upset. But what could she do? Her son had to become a brilliant painter. Reading that old note-book Painter got freaked off in the class-rooms and his comrades' companies. He wanted to reanimate that incredible language he sank in. He continued reading: Moj angel, kak nevynosimo pechal'nymi stanovyatsya moi dni bez tebya. Neuznavaem na ulicah tvoimi glazami, ishchushchimi moi sledy. azlagayus'. Vse ravno tonu v lice tvoem, spyashchem ryadom s moimi gubami. Tvoi vkusnye grudi, i zapah vlagalishcha. Pomnyu. YA ne mogu bez tvoih istorij na noch', tvoego krika v pustotu s mol'boj ostanovit' vremya, ili vsego lish' utroit' dlitel'nost' kazhdoj sekundy. Bez tvoego ekstravagantnogo bel'ya, bez tvoih zubnyh past i bestaktnyh voprosov. YA tak davno ne kupal tebya v dozhde. Ty prekrasno znaesh', chto mozhesh' uvidet' moe lico v kazhdoj ego kaple. No ya ne v prave zapolnyat' im zapolnennoe toboj prostranstvo, i ty chuvstvuesh' sladkoe solnce, otdyhayushchee na tvoej kozhe. CHitaya vse eto, Hudozhnik nachinal volnovat'sya, oshchushchat' melodiyu, nervnuyu i chuvstvennuyu, i predavalsya fantaziyam, ne ostanavlival sebya i okruzhal sebya, malen'kogo i tshchedushnogo, obrazami, isporchennymi detstvom krasavicami, ulybayushchimisya starikami, kupayushchimisya v Karibskom more, i fantaziroval svoimi nogami, volosyanym pokrovom, mochkami ushej, slyunoj. On zapletal kosy rusalkam i svyazyval ih mezhdu soboj, pronikal v ih gushchu, bez ostanovki izvergaya semya, do rezi v detorodnom organe, stanovilsya edinstvennym mudrecom na planete, voploshcheniem velichajshih uchenij mogushchestvennyh guru. Hudozhnik postigal vkusy samyh izyskannyh duhov na telah samyh bespodobnyh aristokratok i zvezd. I esli on prevrashchalsya vo vselennuyu, to vse izvestnye lyudyam planety umeshchalis' v tochke ego zrachka. V voskresen'e utrom u Hudozhnika pobalivala golova. Ot ne vypityh lassi vchera vmeste s pozirovavshimi emu danajcami. Oni kazalis' emu stranno ustroennymi lyud'mi, v nih chuvstvovalas' neopredelennost' i nepreodolimost'. On uznal o tom, chto oni ne vymerli, natolknuvshis' v Akapul'kskom bloknote na chernoviki pisem, napravlyaemyh nekoemu Niko, imenuemym velichajshem danajcem. Avtor pisem prosil Niko prinyat' ego v svoe soobshchestvo danajcev. Posle chteniya sokrovennyh strok Hudozhnik nachal bylo dumat', chto zavtra emu prividitsya kto-to iz nih, danajcev, vlastnyh i spravedlivyh, no on polnost'yu utratil zhelanie prosypat'sya na sleduyushchij den'. Vystroennye plany rushilis', rvalis' niti i svyazuyushchie, voznikali pobochnye zhelaniya ne videt' bol'she nikogda yarkogo solnca i pasmurnogo neba, ne chuvstvovat' zapahi leta i briz morya. Ego nachali kusat' muhi, bezzhalostno i do krovi, ego pytalis' oglushit' pticy svoim peniem, v svoem korolevstve on ne chuvstvoval spokojstviya, no znal, chto ego oberegaet son. Potom tuchi nasekomyh pokryvali ego telo, zaleplyali dyhatel'nye puti, prosnulis' krysy, kralis' k nemu, brosalis' na ego telo i hlestali ego svoimi holodnymi hvostami. Emu videlis' danajcy, lezhashchie na gryaznyh ulicah, otbirayushchie kosti u golodnyh dvorovyh sobak, ohotyashchiesya na kotov i koshek s cel'yu podzharit' ih vecherom na obshchem kostre i popytat'sya prodat' ih shkurki. V bredu Hudozhnik uzhe zval danajcev, molil ih otpustit' ego kuda-nibud', za ili v. Having found the edge he wished so much to stay at least for some indefinite time there being nowhere feeling being nowhere, though finally he realised how painful it was to be still in and be needed to someone as well as needing someone. Relieve me. Give me life. He knew everything had to be fine in Acapulco but definitely he was exhausted by the time of awakening. He always remembered that visions.V Sunday morning he had always to get concentrated. Danajcy ushli, nichego ne ostaviv. Slabost' ruk posle trudoemkogo seansa. Oni kak budto soshli s nebes. Dve devushki i sem' parnej s ideal'nymi formami tela i lica. Hudozhnik ne mog ne uverovat' v ih danajskoe proishozhdenie. On smeshival kraski, kak krov' poroj smeshivayut genial'nye lichnosti. Vposledstvii Hudozhnik likoval, soedinyaya svoi eskizy, trogaya kistochkami polotno, vypisyvaya lica i tela. Vse bylo chrezmerno sovershennym, i neobhodimo izuchit' sperva imenno eti sovershennye linii, chtoby dostupnym stalo poznanie disgarmonii, nesovmestimostej i urodstva, obretenie atmosfery chelovecheskogo teloslozheniya. Hudozhnik porazhalsya estestvu uvidennoj im krasoty, takogo ne moglo byt' v prirode, no on svyazyval poyavlenie etih lyudej so svoim nedavnim snom. azdelsya i vyshel v sad svoej znamenitoj mamy so znamenem v rukah, emu ne bylo ravnyh v prodelyvanii vyhodok, kazhushchihsya bessmyslennymi, i v itoge, neob®yasnimymi. A emu byli chuzhdy ob®yasneniya. Emu nuzhen byl krik sadovnika, tshchatel'no vychishchayushchego klumby ekzoticheskih cvetov, polivayushchego kazhdyj listik i lepestok, kogda on (Hudozhnik) s beshenoj ulybkoj i ozorstvom v glazah nachinal nosit'sya so znamenem vokrug cvetov, ugrozhaya slomat' ih nezhnye stebel'ki. Potom on sadilsya v shezlong i ustremlyal glaza v nebo, na solnce, a kogda v glazah ego krugi szhimali i rastyagivali vzglyad, on provorno zaskakival v svoyu svetluyu masterskuyu i brosalsya k holstu i mol'bertu, umolyaya zrenie sohranit' zapechatlennye gammy cvetov. On risoval detej. Potom chital dalee i porazhalsya vse bol'she i bol'she: Ona byla v holshchovoj kurtke, otvlekala prodavca voprosami o svezhesti tovara i ego pitatel'nyh kachestvah. Maris v to samoe vremya zasovyval v rukava i karmany cennye produkty; a ona byla takoj svezhej s dozhdlivym vzglyadom, v holshchovoj kurtke, i privlekatel'naya belaya rubashka pod nej, s nej hotelos' provodit' serye vechera v zabroshennyh cerkvyah i zamkah, ee okutyval asketizm feodalov, zanimayushchihsya filosofiej, devushka, samo olicetvorenie spyashchih nauk i grusti vagantov. Maris vse delal pravil'no, bystro i nezametno ni dlya kogo, magazin byl prakticheski pust, on mog zabrat' eshche mnogo raznoj vsyachiny, a potom uzhe mog podavat' signal Inge, i oni mogli uhodit', no ego vzglyad nashel bespechno nablyudayushchego za ego dejstviyami muzhchinu, vybiravshego, vidimo, pivo u sosednej stojki. Kak Maris mog upustit' ego iz vidu? Muzhchina nikakimi dejstviyami ne ukazyval Marisu na to, chto on nedovolen ego postupkami, nikak ne ukoryal vzglyadom, lish' smotrel na Marisa i sovsem nezametno ulybalsya, lish' dvizheniem brovej i slegka vzdragivayushchimi gubami. Maris neskol'ko rasteryalsya, i plitka shokolada, kotoraya nahodilas' u nego v ruke, opyat' okazalas' na vitrine. Maris smushchenno, s opaskoj nachal udalyat'sya ot muzhchiny, kotoryj vse eshche ne otryval vzglyad ot nego, vskore Maris imitiroval slabyj kashel', chto i bylo signalom, ego hrip Inga srazu zhe ugadyvala v shume lyubogo magazina. Teper' ee vremya sladko ulybat'sya kassiru, nevysokomu polnomu muzhchine; takaya ulybka rastaplivala ego zhir; naklonyayas' k steklu prilavka, kak budto rassmatrivaya chto-to, Inga eshche bol'she charovala prodavca svoej proglyadyvayushchej nezhnoj beloj rubashkoj, oblegayushchej ee krasivuyu grud', i zapahom svoih volos umilyala ego. V eto vremya Maris priblizhalsya k vyhodu, zamechennyj tol'ko vysokim muzhchinoj, kotoryj uzhe vybral pivo i podhodil k kasse rovnym shagom, v krasivom plashche. Smushchenie Marisa muchilo ego, no on uzhe vyshel iz magazina. Zametiv eto, Inga nakonec kupila u tolstogo prodavca zhvachku, tot chas razvernuv i polozhiv krasivo ee sebe v rot, bolee ocharovyvaya prodavca, i totchas ischezla. U sleduyushchego perekrestka ee zhdal Maris. On ne uspel vzyat' mnogogo, i mesta v ego odezhde bylo dostatochno, a eto byl odin iz naibolee bezopasnyh i bogatyh magazinov. Ingu ispugal ego vzvolnovannyj vzglyad. Volnenie napolnilo ih serdca, i pered nimi vyrosla figura muzhchiny v plashche s butylkoj piva, on vyglyadel ne na mnogo starshe ih, no smotrel, kak starik, pri smerti. -- YA iskal vas, tochnee, prosto iskal, kogo-nibud', kto by tak vyglyadel i byl sposoben na melkie krazhi v gastronomah i supermarketah. Ty ves'ma graciozno vytaskival zubnuyu pastu iz korobki i pryatal v bryukah. A ty ochen' milaya devochka, ya tozhe otvleksya na tvoe koketstvo, hotel bylo zagovorit', i nachat' znakomstvo, ya byl by ne protiv priglasit' tebya domoj i pogruzhat' v svoi fantazii. No mne bylo by ne prosto obshchat'sya s toboj. Nedoumenno smotreli Maris i Inga na neznakomca. -- Ah, lastochka... -- sledovalo prodolzhenie, -- vy davno zanimaetes' lyubov'yu? Vse molchali, Hudozhnik ulybalsya. Potom, zadumalsya, otvernulsya, otkryl bloknot i pogruzilsya v chtenie. Nikto ne uhodil. CHerez polminuty Hudozhnik raskrylsya: -- Esli vy ne zanimalis' lyubov'yu, ya vam mogu prepodavat' eto iskusstvo. Inga ne mogla poshevelit'sya, odnako ona mogla otshit' kogo ugodno. Vseh mogla postavit' na mesto, umela vyigryvat' spory, mogla obmanut' blyustitelej poryadka v gorode. Sejchas ona okazalas' nemoshchnoj i podavlennoj iskrami vzglyada, starcheskogo na molodom lice, sposobnogo byt' universal'nym gipnoticheskim sredstvom. Vzglyad napominal Inge o teh zhelaniyah ee zreyushchej ploti, kotorye ne stali real'nost'yu, uplyli v dalekie strany s goluboglazymi matrosami, zateryalis' v gornyh ushchel'yah vysokogorij, i sgorali na kostrah al'pinistov, prevratilis' v slezy u otkrytyh okon polnoluniya, soedinyalis' so snegom i tayali na gubah Fabrisa, zateryavshegosya sredi kanalov Amsterdama. Maris boyalsya, on podozreval, chto ih hotyat otdat' pravoohranitel'nym organam na istyazanie, posadit' v tyur'mu, otobrat' vse, ob®yavit' bezhencami, unichtozhit' ih rukopisi. On szhal ruku Ingi. Ona bezrezul'tatno pytalas' osvobodit'sya. Hudozhnik zametil rasteryannost' molodyh lyudej. -- YA priglashayu va