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the place  I had left other day, unless  the  tubes became longer and  Jenny
played her guitar better  with more passion... Grateful  eyes  of her lonely
fans  showed  nothing  more  than passion.  That  passion had  no  chance to
disappear going nowhere on the lonely streetcar, the one  named "desire", no
matter we stood on the tips of our feet.  We'd been looking in the nights of
erotic dreams and swimming in the stereo floods of radio still. Raped sounds
of lonely women grew in the freaky lights of street disaster.
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starts of all stars  in midnight  routes  with  hurting  horizons... hurting
eyes... with 'yes' and  blue  motives of pregnant  sadness. Soon the baby is
born.  He caught  her smiling in front of the TV news break; in  his special
way he would gently carry her face blank  and motionless to the rest-room of
ending stories.
     I need  defence  in any bus I enter  like the miracles  stealer wishing
million  pardons  from passer-byes  watching  suspiciously. No  friends.  No
leave-takings. I wish I stole your heart instead of all those useless silent
joys of watchmen rushing after me. Great darkest psychology  plays hard with
silver substance of your body. I was such a bad sofa for your hands, so soft
inspector  of your  gaps and stretches, so .  .  so,  though  no one  should
intrude........
     With  the  same  feelings occurred the  night before Angel  came to LA.
Lipstick stuck in the mouth of the one she saw in the mirror with no visible
head  leaning to the no  one's shoulder. She knew it would be like that  but
she could utter the only word of love that she hated to pronounce. That word
tortured her articulation, and by all means she always tried to avoid it  in
use. However she  could neither swallow it nor rip it with  teeth and tongue
at the very moment she came to LA. Oh, she could stand silently in the queue
of  ticket  buyers, or  she  could  split within strange prayers  in the dim
churches  or  hide in car  jams  drinking  gasoline and playing  cards  with
lonesome  passengers. Or she  could repeat the ending  of the  most fabulous
wrack, she could  start...... At  least....she could start.  But she changed
her blood group and never more responded to her name. Yellow pages must have
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where is the way, but he did not realise how painful it was to be out of the
way. We are drinking in the bar  of lost desires and recall how beautiful we
were  before  somebody  told us we  would be happier no more. We  thought we
would ... so long and dramatic awaiting.
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for  my  hands  ...  don't you feel them.  Don't you fly alone  in the  most
fabulous space sleeping in the  synthetic minds of your groovy toys. Morning
will come with the news that no more well is drilled in Kazakhstan. Everyone
should  know. Stars  are deeper  in  the pocket. Two lines  on  the escaping
surface of my face  are  clearly seen in mirrors of  invisible desires.  And
eyes are starting to rain.

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should be a polite young  man however could not stop my creative invasion of
the oil world. I was a pacifier looking for my pass. Stuart Satclife came to
me  at  night. A girl in a rouge jacket  puts a  stone in her pants. No  one
predicted that it appeared to be a rolling one.
     No one in my dreams resembles a piano player. Though Stephanie was  too
persistent  in looking for the password enabling her seeing..seeing a  piano
player in any dream of hers, thus she got lost in dreams, of hers.
     I  was the one living  once and  again leaving home and just  trying to
read your heart....
     getting old  at a speed of light...  dear.. how shameless it is from my
side  to make you using  your  time  making  me  losing  my mind..  hard  to
recognise the ability to write quite a sincere  letter  to a person like you
as if taking a chance to escape nowhere from personal 'inner' phobias. If we
get  to know  each  other...  hope  we  would....  you'll probably  find  it
remarkable to interpret these abortions of my life.
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     Norway  seemed  to be dedicated to the snowball  giants. A piano player
left Norway  for any place.  He's  on the  rode. Wether  he  remembered  his
sarcastic flat in the heart of Prussian blue or didn't nobody could be sure.
He  studied  the most complicated  rhythms and  piano compositions and newly
born cheeks of his beautiful dream  to see Stephanie... And that day he lied
on the warm sand in  Benin looking in the sun and everything was perfect, he
saw her face and definitely recalled his history in Prussian blue.

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understood  me, however random  nights of  seldom lights disturbed the  city
song  of love and  passion.  She was with eyes  of  the  man who's come from
distant clouds. And walking on the moon lonesome sounds heard I heard.

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     It  is so wonderful you are recording  my remote voices from the behind
of sorrow.  Reveal so  so so tenderly in line in  stripe of flow low flowing
blow...........

     Friends of  Lea.  Do  it  now.  In  pain  and  un-skinned  implanted in
decentness of any baby's dream....  Careful. You lock your life. Secrets are
still strong and indispensable.

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